I'm a naturally anxious person, but meetings didn't give me extra anxiety. I felt more of a heaviness of heart at the thought of going. Once inside my home at the end of the day I sure as heck didn't want to venture out again in the evening, especially for what I started calling "the beatings."
Toward the end of my association when I was at the meeting I would feel as though my insides were trying to crawl out of me and I would often just get up and leave.