i am reading "stranger in a strange land" by robert a. heinlein.
i read it over 20 years ago.
now i am reading it from a completely different perspective.
When I took a break to check for new activity I was reading: MySQL 5.0 Reference Manual :: 13 SQL Statement Syntax :: 13.7 Database Administration Statements :: 13.7.1 Account Management Statements :: 13.7.1.3 GRANT Syntax
Later this evening i will continue with: Stalin's Curse by Robert Gellately. Pretty depressing and can only be read in small chunks.
as i grew up in the religion, i was a 10. i wanted to be made a "servant" because that was instilled in me from infancy.
i diligently studied ever piece of watchtower literature and defended my religion intensely.. when i got into my 30's, i started to see little cracks in the watchtower's surface but decided to "wait on jehovah".
then i started to research a little more critically and realized i couldn't defend the prophecies, the treatment of people and the hypocrisy that was becoming more obvious, that especially an elder can see.. it was a gradual thing---from a 10 to a zero!.
Started off as a 7. Over the years, slid down to 4. When I finally moved to another country and had time to think (nobody expected anything from me) it settled down at 0. Since I have been here (JWN), now into negative territory.
i have bdd, it isn't just the meetings it's everything.
i don't want to go but i feel guilty of not going cause he said everyone is wondering where i am, but i dont want anyone to see my face... and tomorrow they said they'll call me to make sure im going but it's so tough.
also how do i cancel talks thx.. .
Demokan,
Many years ago my life was messed up and I really needed some certainty, some structure. I got involved with the JW's and turned my thinking mind off in exchange for that certainty and structure. As hard as it might be, I encourage you to make a plan to get out. Seek something better. You will find lots of support here on your journey. Keep posting...
par 10 - "significant funds are needed to support kingdom activities.
each year tens of millions of dollars are spent caring for the expenses of traveling overseers, special pioneers and missionaries".. so the gb wants you to support their "kingdom interest", but can care less about the local congregation pioneers who for some struggle to make ends meet, who use their gas driving all around the territory putting wear and tear on their cars sometimes not getting gas money to take care of their expenses, let alone any repairs needed.
talking about highway robbery!.
I'm with ohnightdivine on this one. The answer is -> No! Already did my share. Thankfully, I didn't drop out of college to enter the ful-time ranks. But still suffering from taking the advice to just view my work as a means to an end (pay bills while waiting for the new system) instead of developing a career.
if one reads genesis from the first chapter through the end with an open mind, it is clear that not only is it not true, but that god is potrayed as a cruel, petty, childish micromanaging tyrant.
if one continues reading the ot this is just further solidified.
how do jws not see the obvious?
ADCMS: I think he had at least one. In the Genesis account before the flood, it said he felt regret about having made man. I'm sure a lot of other species, extinct or not would agree it was a bad decision.
i missed the recent ca, but checked out the program posted on jw.org.
in what to listen for they had this:.
3. what should be our reaction when.
9. Why must we work hard to remain in
Jehovah’s teaching? (Luke 13:24)
or since Jehovah=GB, because it is strange?
See #3 above
53 years ago we got married in a kh by a bro.
about 20 years ago my wife and i, and two children left the cult , and have never been happier .. wifey was happy with the flowers i gave her and this evening we will go for a quiet dinner at a restuarant with a bottle or two of champers and if i`m lucky i may even get desserts , or not.. smiddy.
Congrats. Hope you can manage a few dances. My wife still loves to dance.
i missed the recent ca, but checked out the program posted on jw.org.
in what to listen for they had this:.
3. what should be our reaction when.
Exactly sir82. You get the gold-star and an extra bonus day in paradise.
i missed the recent ca, but checked out the program posted on jw.org.
in what to listen for they had this:.
3. what should be our reaction when.
I missed the recent CA, but checked out the program posted on jw.org. In what to listen for they had this:
3. What should be our reaction when
confronted with “strange teachings”?
(Heb. 13:9)
oh, the irony... What could be stranger than the stuff the WTBATS doles out?
if one reads genesis from the first chapter through the end with an open mind, it is clear that not only is it not true, but that god is potrayed as a cruel, petty, childish micromanaging tyrant.
if one continues reading the ot this is just further solidified.
how do jws not see the obvious?
I am planning on using this every step of the way as we read the bible together. She has already commented on how she never got the animal sacrifice thing. It was so funny when she came home from the CA on Saturday when she asked me - "Don't you love JHVH"? I didn't reply but you can imagine what i wanted to say.
