I thought about waking him up then I realized that they love the org more than me
C&A I used to think that about my mother, brother and sisters but now I think they are just lost little people who can't cope with the big wide world so they hide in a cult. No moral or ethical decisions to make, they just do as they are told. They don't have to decide which chariities to support or which political issues to care about. They just actually like being told what to do, what to think and waiting for God to make a beautiful world. Really sad.
But you are not like that. I'm glad the healing has started.