listen up noonehome.
you need to take charge of this situation NOW. Stop being so emotional, or your whole fing life is going to get flushed down the toilet just cause you love everyone and trust them so much blah blah blah.
You have two important priorities right now:
1. Graduate college, celebrate what you have accomplished.
2. Get a job.
Wow look at that. You could get a job. It might even be that you HAVE TO MOVE for your job.
Moving away doesnt mean you lose everyone. Are you still living at home. Have you lived in the same house all your life. Why are you being so dramatic. It wouldnt have to be a BIG move across the country.
Listen to the two options you have made for yourself:
1. Move away, lose everyone, be a busy JW
2. Stay with people who just love you conditionally and be a busy JW
your worst fear:
3. Be Dfed for apostasy cause you are a blabbermouth
I would just like to point out to you how limited your vision of your future is.
Did it ever occur to you that you might find a job you really like , make friends who really care for you and could care less what you think about God, and have a fulfilling life OUTSIDE WTBTS without having to put any of that on the table. It is no ones business but yours.
By the way, try this: IMAGINE YOURSELF HAPPY. IMAGINE THE LIFE YOU WANT.
Contrary to what you have been taught, it is entirely possible.
Dont be a fool. Button up, make a plan. I dont care if you study with those elders or not. It sounds like if you do you wont be able to keep your newly developed critical thinking skills in check. I see this playing out as a total disaster unless you wise up to the danger zone you have put yourself in and act with some sense of strategy.
I wish I could slap some sense into you!