Day Dreaming!
We had a talk saying day dreaming was wrong as we should be meditating on spiritual matters not day dreaming!
I have always been a day dreamer. Because my childhood was so awful, I would disappear into my own little world in order to cope. I created an alternative me, who was happy with a loving family. I had a good imagination and later on I actually wrote some fiction for women's magazines, albeit it under a pen name so no one knew.
And what man hasn't listening to rock music and imagined himself as the lead guitarist or imagined himself scoring the winning goal in a football match.
But then we had the talk telling us how very, very, very wrong this was!
I went home from that meeting and I felt so guilty. I'd spent half my life day dreaming about one thing or another. I asked Jehovah for forgiveness and said I wouldn't do it again.
Now my eyes are wide open, I see how utterly stupid I was! How much under their control I was and how much they actually controlled us.
I am so happy to be free of that constant guilt that I'm doing something - thinking something - the organization disproves of.