Nicolas:
From what you've been saying, I get the feeling that perhaps you're more depressed than you'd like to believe. That's my professional opinion (I'm a nurse) and my personal opinion too (I've suffered from depression in the past). You'd probably get a lot of benefit from going back to therapy, only this time talk about what you are going through because of leaving the JWs. Educate the therapist about how the JWs are a group that has strong control over members, so that the therapist will know how best to help you.
Coming away from the JWs is a very difficult thing psychologically. You are undoing YEARS and YEARS worth of "brainwashing", and having to learn to think all over again. It's VERY hard work. When we were JWs, we believed that our lives had a real purpose, and now that we know it's all a huge farce, we have to figure out what is the point of being here all over again, without having someone to just give us nice answers from a book that claims to have all the answers.
I got the impression from you in chat that you're a young man with almost your whole life ahead of you. I don't know if you were ever baptized as a JW, but if not, you're probably in a better situation than if you were because you'll have less problems maintaining relationships with your family who are JWs. You're going to be OK.
It is going to take some time for you to adjust to being 'out' of the JWs. Mentally we've been in prison, and like someone who has finally been released from jail, there is a period of adjustment where we have to learn to socialize and re-connect with people all over again. We're all here to help you with your journey.
I'm glad you're here. My e-mail is open if you want to talk privately.
Love, Scully
It is not persecution for an informed person
to expose a certain religion as being false. - WT 11/15/63
A religion that teaches lies cannot be true. - WT 12/1/91