Don't be upset or discouraged. It seems that Jesus's followers saw and heard him first hand, and still "didn't get it".
Mary Magdeline "got it", and because she was a woman, they labeled her as a harlot. Jesus had more affection for her than anyone else. That says so much, especially since the religious leaders refused to include her writings as part of the bible we know today. Why were they so afraid of her?
For me, the most important thing that the enlightened Jesus taught us was how to show love and compassion in all things. He could do that, because he truly understood his connection to the divine and he used the gifts of the spirit freely. We are very far from that today, but it is really a part of who we are.
Find out who you are, learn to love yourself, and you will be very surprised at how your perception of life changes.
This is something that you have to do for yourself, as it is the journey of the soul. Remember the saying: "today is the first day of the rest of your life"? Well, there is much truth in that for sure.
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