Damm, I am so sorry this is going to happen to you when there are so many wicked men and women in the Organization. You were too honest for your own good, it's dangerous to speak your mind, even with a mate. I found it to be comforting to have cut most of my conditional friends off over the past few months, it won't be hard for someone who has no association or desires any association with fake people.
What sucks is all the good things you did in your life as a Witness will be tossed out into the wind, people will believe the lie over the truth. Who will stand up for your side of these issues, "God is not unrigtheous so as to forget your fine works!"
Ray, the easiest way they start to attack dissidents is labeling them "insane, paranoid, PTSD, emotionally imbalanced", I pray you ignore and don't allow the silly shunning to break you down.
Are you comfortable with the direction your life is heading now, are you ready to move on with your life? Dogpatch's thread on volunteers was interesting to me, people who blogged are moving on with their life. Fixating on the negative will destroy the joy you might be able to discover once you create a new identity for yourself. You need to fill in the void that was a huge part of your life with new positive things, people and hobbies.
You seem like you have a good personality, you won't have a hard time making new friends if you can leave this mess behind. Once you dump all the negative people behind, fill yourself with things you were held back from doing, you will be ok. God Bless You and I Hope Jehovah keeps his loving hands on you.
I probably won't be far behind you at the rate I am traveling this road now, I am ashamed of all the cowards who want to be worldly (celebrate christmas, birthdays, do drugs, steal, lie, cheat on taxes, practice Corban, hating their neighbor and Pedophiles or family who sexually violated their siblings.) while claiming to be strong Jehovah Witnesses. Jehovah might use you to help others see the farce we call a "loving brotherhood" that does not exist. You are in my prayers tonight, please read the book of Job, Eliphaz, Bildad and Zophar will be waiting to test your integrity to Jesus. I am going to spark up a fat one tonight for medical reasons for you, one day we will smoke the peace pipe together!
God Bless You, May you have inner peace from above!