Hi doughnutkitty,
Welcome and congrats for being brave. This isn't easy, but it also isn't "rocket science". Freedom - be it from religion, oppressive regimes, beating husbands, etc. comes at a price. I always say that Freedom is my Ferrari. Very costly, but also appreciated.
Now, some practical things. If you have a chance read this: http://www.raptitude.com/2010/10/9-mind-bending-epiphanies-that-turned-my-world-upside-down/
Especially points 2 and 3. Life unfolds only in present moments. Maybe you are creating a lot of stress about things that have not happened yet. It is good to create a Plan, but don't get obsessed with future events that only exist in your mind. No need to create anxiety because of the things you are learning. You can and will get through with this - like many others here.
You don't have to solve all the dilemmas today. Slice by slice.
Keep posting. Most of us have gone through similar situations or even worse. Keep your head up.