If living a lie is how you are supposed retain your JW family and friends, then who the hell needs 'em?
If they truly love you and care about you and want you to be happy, they will respect your decision and will not shun you. Of course, it will take those TRUE family and friends to dig deep into their hearts and ignore the indoctrination they've received from the WTS over the years.
Hang in there, gurl!