Tinkerbell,
If anyone understands what you are feeling, I do!
I've ALWAYS felt that my home is my comfort zone and I was always happy to be home. I always felt as if I was busy and fine just to stay home and cook and clean the house to make it just as comfortable for my family who saw it as "home" too. I wish I could just stay at home all the time. My home is were I'm the happiest. But I also feel guilt if I'm only giving my all personally and not financialy to it. If it were possible to stay at home and do all the work it takes to keep a home a home, and to do it guilt free, my life would be perfect. Not because I don't want to go into the outside world and and work. But just because I would not have to deal with the stress that goes along with outside work. I guess that's what the physical time outside/money compensates for.
I don't need the compensation. But at the same time, without the compensation comes the guilt.
Sometimes I wish I were living back in the 40s/50s. Not because I disagree with women's liberation, but because now it's a guilt trip and there seems to be no liberation. If a woman wants to stay at home and be a "homemaker" as the word goes, she's viewed as "lazy".
That is why you feel guilty for being yourself and wanting to just stay at home and make home a comfortable place to be for yourself and CC.
that's my 2 cents.
peace,
somebody
Edited by - somebody on 20 November 2002 16:50:10
Edited by - somebody on 20 November 2002 16:51:57