I’m well past confused I’ve got to the acceptance stage.
I think the best option for me is stay physically in the congregation as it’s such a full life, so many good friends and gatherings. Just like a Trekkie who doesn’t like Star Trek anymore but likes the friends and convention's, so pretend to still like star treck.
I actually think there are many many JWs like me, if not the majority these days actually. It didn’t used to be this way, it used to be most fully convinced but not anymore.
I can tell talking to old friends that they don’t really believe in JW theology, well not convinced of it. But it would be nice if it’s true and there is a possibility of that of parts of it at least.
But for now, if I left I would be missing out on all the association that I’ve got used to a couple of time per week.
It’s actually much better being PIMA, no stress. I go to ministry groups but never go door to door anymore. Not many do come to think of it. We just go to the park or shopping then back for coffee break and catch up on all the goings on.
I sometimes look at those poor souls who are fully convinced of the GB teachings and totally PIMI, Ignorance is bliss for them. They so believe the new world is right around the corner that they can cope better with their problems now.
I used to have faith like that and I was happier taking the blue pill.
but I can never go back. I can just take the purple pill.
If only it was possible to have the kind of faith that those die hard have, so much that you really experience the bliss of ignorance. It’s just not possible once you have taken the red pill. The purple pill is the best possible option now