An organization is as only as good as the MEN in it.
That being said, your baptism will signify that you understand that you will be associated with "Jehovah's Spirit-Directed Organization", and are expected to abide by such with your whole heart, soul, mind, and strength. When you say "Yes" to that, you've signed the dotted line, so to speak.
Interesting, you did mention becoming "stronger" and "wiser"; this is true, certainly in the context of any suffering and tribulation, etc. In taking your own spiritual journey, on this earth, never forget that.
Personally, my experience IN the JWs has made me stronger and (I hope) wiser as to my spiritual life-course. One aspect has been the struggle between loyalty to God, and loyalty to one's religion.
If you ever come to this Crisis of Conscience, I'm sure Ray Franz could help. In my mind, he is the epitome of one REALLY searching for truth, and struggles not to compromise, while not trashing what journey he already took as a Governing Body member for nine years.
Like you said, it made him too "stronger" and "wiser".