One minute I'm believing completely in God and in Jesus Christ, and in the next instance I'm questioning all religious systems in general. I think I'm just lacking faith, but then in the back of my head I'm wondering if I've just been so indoctrinated and deluded...that I can't imagine living without considering that there is a God to be worshiped, or that I need to worship God in order to be happy. I don't know how full-blown atheists or full blown Christians do it either way. There is just so many doubts for either side, how can you really truly pick a definite position? That's why I know in my heart I'm agnostic, but I came to this conclusion before and it just made me feel empty...purposeless. Being a Christian gives me a purpose, and even though I know this Organization is faulty, right now it's all I have to fall back on. I don't know what else to do, or what to turn to.
I don't know if I'm making any sense at all, but I just needed to rant. :/
I wish the big questions in life weren't so hard to answer.