Hi D&C
I was just wondering if you'd had a second (or third) opinion on your diagnosis. Maybe one from a different "quarter" than psychiatry. I know a lot of people look down on a more natural solution to human ailments, but sometimes it's worth it.
I know very little about BP, so I'm not recommending any treatments myself, just saying that you may look into other alternatives.
As to the positivity of this (and other forums): I think the internet allows people to voice a lot of their frustrations, and so it is not always the best place to go for healing.
Positive assurance that what you're doing is right? Well, all I can say is that standing on your on two feet can never be wrong! Don't give up on yourself, or the decisions you've made to think for yourself.
Love and affirmation
taoInit