J.S. would you really be happy living a lie and deceiving yourself for the rest of your life ? I don`t think so. Coming to a knowledge of TTATT ,one can never go back .Admittedly it is a big adjustment to come to terms with at first ,however over time (sometimes only months or sometimes years, it`s up to you ) it becomes so much easier .
Don`t waste your life trying to please other people ,do what you want to do with your life it`s too short to waste trying to please other people because no matter what you do you never will.
edit to add: With new friends non JW`s their is no need to acknowledge that you were ever a JW ,I never have and I have a lot of close worldly associates that I spend time with on my terms.
Their is no need to disclose your life as a JW if you don`t want to.
Just saying.