Posts by Issa

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JW Kids Bullying My Daughter

by pale.emperor in

trying not to type swearwords as i write this so bare with me.. my little 3yo attends meetings with her jw mum (who doesn't believe watchtower anymore but is stuck in because she relies on her family for help).

my mum (the one who tells people im dead) had a party for her grandchildren.

that's my 4 nieces and 1 nephew aged from 3yo-11yo.

Issa

And the witnesses say they love their neighbor. Proves to show they're hypocrites. I'm sorry that your daughter went through that. At such a young age and already witnessing what it means to be an outcast within "Brothers" and "Sisters". It's all bullcrap and putting up a display to show their love to their neighbor. Hopefully this experience will show your ex what the organization really is about. And not being invited to a relatives party is really, really messed up on so many levels.

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I left the organization

by Issa in

i left the organization.

my awakening was this month of july, the first week of july.

i couldn't answer my own questions about the organization or the doctrines, i couldn't understand the prophecies, i couldn't figure quite well what i was feeling.

Issa

I left the organization. My awakening was this month of July, the first week of July. I couldn't answer my own questions about the organization or the doctrines, I couldn't understand the prophecies, I couldn't figure quite well what I was feeling.

I'm going to write a disassociating letter. Straight to the point. This organization is not the truth. God is not directing it. And there's no of the world. Men is suits, frail old men calling themselves the GB...they didn't die for me. I'm aware of the consequences. My sisters would limit their contact, but I believe that they'll see the organization for whatbit is. I doubt two loving parents woukd allow their daughters to remain in a Pedophile paradise org.

Thank you everyone for your support and advice. I'm so glad and relieved I'm not the only one alone. I can begin to live a life. To love the people around me and truly see a wonderful future ahead of us.

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Next steps

by Issa in

"you're parents are going to die", my bible teacher said that to my sister and i. a 12-year-old and 14-year-old, simply going to a theocratic school meeting, learning to be submissive and learn how to preach the 'watchtower way'.

this incident was after meeting ended.

we made our way to our frail bible teacher.

Issa

"You're parents are going to die", my bible teacher said that to my sister and I. A 12-year-old and 14-year-old, simply going to a Theocratic School meeting, learning to be submissive and learn how to preach the 'Watchtower way'. This incident was after meeting ended. We made our way to our frail bible teacher. That night, I can remember. She said it so blunt, so cold. She indicated that it was MY and my sister's duty to bring our parents into the 'Truth'. We made our way out, with my bible teacher holding both my shoulders. My face, my expression, which only one teacher noticed. "Did you get in trouble? " She asked. Sick. I felt sick, repulsed, humiliated, I wanted to end it all. How can I contain my burst of fury in a bathroom stall. I could only cry in silent and gasps, thanks to the sisters' babbling and cleaning the bathroom. My sister cried in the car, left alone with me while dad bought something from the convenience store. She clearly expressed how she felt. "I hate her". I feel indifferent with her. I don't know how to feel towards her, besides pity because now she's going through health problems. Cancer at age 20 and scabies outbreaks. She's frail alright. I wonder how she'll react when I leave the organization completely. Gone for good.

I'm a baptized publisher, coerced into baptism by my bible teacher. Only preached two hours a month. A new method of preaching the good news was actually using the bible, "Teaching the Truth". Even so, I still preached the magazines WT and Awake! Monthly subscriptions early in the morning on gasoline stations and later door to door. I hated talking to complete strangers. I hated not being able to answer my own questions. And most of all, I hated being lectured my bible teacher.

I'm a baptized publisher, currently on "Keep yourselves in God's love" book with two teachers. A sister and a mother. My sister and I. I used to baby sit wonderful children (bratty, boastful, but all that mattered was their unique personalities) from Sisters and Brothers going on a date night. I hung out more, spoke out more in the hospitalities or gatherings. I became quick friends with new families moving into the congregation. Good memories...but the pain and paranoia from instilling me fear and shame for being me...I'm glad I left this organization.

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My finfings

by Issa in

i'm glad i found this website.

thanks for everyone who read my experience.

at first, i really didn't know what to do after i woke up, but i occupied myself doing research about the wt society.

Issa

@ problemaddict 2

I'm from the US. There's a somewhat amount of witnesses over at my area. Although, the congregations are far enough for people to go visit them. The congregation I used to go was 30 minutes aways from home. My parents are not baptized, yet they believe it's the 'Truth'.

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My finfings

by Issa in

i'm glad i found this website.

thanks for everyone who read my experience.

at first, i really didn't know what to do after i woke up, but i occupied myself doing research about the wt society.

Issa

@Unshackle TheChains

Yes, I'm aware of the consequences. My sister decided to disassociate for personal reason, yet she's convinced it's the 'Truth'. My younger sister is actively studying. My parents are not baptized, and it remains that way for them. My mom only attends meetings because it was her obligation. My dad stopped going for personal reasons. I'm aware that if I leave, the elders or my sister's current teacher will warb against associating with me. To be honest, I'm okay leaving, but I'm not okay with the elders demanding a meeting with me.

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My finfings

by Issa in

i'm glad i found this website.

thanks for everyone who read my experience.

at first, i really didn't know what to do after i woke up, but i occupied myself doing research about the wt society.

Issa

I'm glad I found this website. Thanks for everyone who read my experience. At first, I really didn't know what to do after I woke up, but I occupied myself doing research about the WT society. Please, I want to get advice about what to do next.

I stopped attending meetings, didn't bother to keep preaching with the WT magazines, and I've only told my mom and sisters I'm no longer attending the meetings or associating with the org. I'm not a minor, 17, I'm barely beginning to live my life as a young adult. I got baptized last year in August, but really, I was coerced and pressured by my teacher. I did however, have a desire to do God's will, but for now, I'm distraught about what I've been teached.

There's so much to take in, in part, my fault for taking in all the found information at once, was overwhelming. Even so, I'm relieved that I learned about these findings. Especially at Jw-Facts and YouTube channels like ex-witnesses Critical Thinker.

Here are my findings about the org that I've researched:

- Prophecies of 1874,1914,1925,1975

- The NWT Bible is basically biased to suit the WT's interpretation of the scriptures

- Blood transfusion (which really, fractions are still blood)

- Child abuse policies/allegations

- Preaching hours (why? )

- Different positions (Pioneer, Circuit overseer, etc... where in the Bible are these positions mentioned? )

- And my own experiences within the org that felt that something was wrong.

I'm planning on writing a letter to the elders about resignation. I don't plan to fade out. I'm aware of the consequences, but I'm decided to leave knowing the disappointments I'm going to face. My family is not completely in the org (The youngest of my sisters is currently studying). My other sister left the org, but she's still convinced it's the truth. I'm worried about her mental health because it has taken a toll on her. It's the indoctrination that has gotten her. I'm glad I left. I can't wait to tell my parents the truth about this org. Hopefully they can understand my experience and my decision.

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My awakening and concern

by Issa in

good evening everyone, i go by issa.

as many former ex-witnesses, i "woke up" from believing that the jw org is the "truth".

this happened during this month thanks to information from jw-facts and youtube videos about ex-witnesses' experience in this org.

Issa

Good evening everyone, I go by Issa. As many former ex-witnesses, I "woke up" from believing that the Jw org is the "Truth". This happened during this month thanks to information from Jw-Facts and YouTube videos about ex-witnesses' experience in this org. Here's my experience and I hope people in this community can relate and help me out sort matters out.

I 'grew up' in this org unintentionally. My mother had studied with a witness. My father had Witnesses parents. As much as they could implore teaching them about the Bible and encouraging them to dedicate their life to Jehovah (or WT), all are either expelled or former witnesses. My dad never baptized, but studied with a witness. I studied with my mother's teacher. For being treated like a mini adult as a kid (afterall, she admitted treating me and my sister like adults in our bible studies), I was taught to believe and live the doctrines of the WT society. My teacher, I'll say this now, was the cause of my trauma as a teen. I didn't pay much attention to the "Great Tribulation", 1914, Armageddon, and the usual fears that the WT implore in their publications. My teacher had good intent to teach me to love Jehovah and imitate Jesus, but she just implored this fear of obligation to live by WT rules (afterall, it's Jehovah's 'nation'). But really, there's so many inconsistencies in the publications that made me question along the way as I was reading. I knew there was something wrong with how this org goes on to say about the end of the world. I never got the whole thing about 1914, let alone 1918 or 1919. My tecaher (she's the first of my series of switching with other teachers) never teached me about 1975. I've only heard about it during (yes, I think you have a hunch) the RC "Don't give up!". Yes, that's the only first occasion I heard about the prophecy of 1975. I've always had a feeling in my gut that something felt wrong, out of place. From trying to answer my own questions to trying to grasping the fact that I been lied too my entire life. I've always found conflicting that Jehovah was going to kill everyone else in Armageddon except the Jws. I've always had these nightmares during my third year of Junior high about the Great Tribulation, my family drying, fire and destruction everyone. And when I told my mother and sisters how I felt (God forbid I told my father), they simply said I was paranoid, brainwashed by my teacher. On the side note, she was the one that explained how the world was going to end and how Jws were going to be persecuted and put into concentration camps during the Great Tribulation.

I'm so relieved to be free. For once I could stop fearing, use my critical thinking, question what I believe, and knowing that I'm not thw only one. I recently left the organization, ans I'm trying to sort evidence to show to my family. My sister is in this situation and I want to convince her that she shouldn't feel guilty for what she is. Like her, my family is believing that the WT is God's organization. Thank you for reading my experience. My concer is how I want to make it clear that I want to resign from the org. I'm baptized (coerced by my first bible teacher). Haha, during our review of the baptism questions, she said I wasn't ready to become a witness. And yeah, I never felt the desire to be baptized as long as I doubted in what I believed of this org.

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How to convince someone to leave.

by Smiruk in

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hey everyone, long time lurker, first time poster.

i'm currently in a jehovah's witnesses household, which is very deep into the "truth".

i woke up a few months ago, and i haven't told my parents yet.

Issa

Nice!! That's the same video I watched yesterday in fact. Haha, and yeah, there's definitely consistency in that video that I've seen in the jw org. I'm glad, relieved, that I'm not the only one that noticed something strange (cult-like) of this org.

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