20yearfader

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  I almost wished i took the blue pill....

  by 20yearfader in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  since joining this site and having my eyes opened,i find i'm now dealing with a lot of emotions that were suppressed.one being the passing of loved ones,in the org we were discouraged from showing proper emotions due to the fact that if you did you were considered weak since they the dearly departed were only sleeping.now im being bombarded with dreams of my loved ones that i,due to my brainwashing never had the emotional release that i should have had.i'm just wondering how others on this site are coping,and dealing with the fact that everything we was taught was false almost as a way to keep up under control,as we lost years and decades of time.i almost wish i keep my head and the sand and had taken the blue pill.what has helped you all deal with this ...new religion......no religion...etc.

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  20yearfader

  Good to know that you guys have had or had these same questions/emotions i think i'm done with organized religion going to sit down and read the bible without the binders on for a change and draw my own conclusions.Funny how fading for so long i never had the courage to research the wt until a couple of months ago so i never had to confront these issues until now.thanks for the encouraging comments
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  I almost wished i took the blue pill....

  by 20yearfader in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  since joining this site and having my eyes opened,i find i'm now dealing with a lot of emotions that were suppressed.one being the passing of loved ones,in the org we were discouraged from showing proper emotions due to the fact that if you did you were considered weak since they the dearly departed were only sleeping.now im being bombarded with dreams of my loved ones that i,due to my brainwashing never had the emotional release that i should have had.i'm just wondering how others on this site are coping,and dealing with the fact that everything we was taught was false almost as a way to keep up under control,as we lost years and decades of time.i almost wish i keep my head and the sand and had taken the blue pill.what has helped you all deal with this ...new religion......no religion...etc.

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  20yearfader

  Since joining this site and having my eyes opened,i find i'm now dealing with a lot of emotions that were suppressed.One being the passing of loved ones,in the org we were discouraged from showing proper emotions due to the fact that if you did you were considered weak since they the dearly departed were only sleeping.Now im being bombarded with dreams of my loved ones that i,due to my brainwashing never had the emotional release that i should have had.I'm just wondering how others on this site are coping,and dealing with the fact that everything we was taught was false almost as a way to keep up under control,as we lost years and decades of time.I almost wish i keep my head and the sand and had taken the blue pill.What has helped you all deal with this ...new religion......no religion...etc
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  Born in, Convert or 1975er?

  by Think About It in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  does a person's involvement in the jw religion usually fall into one of these 3 categories?.

  a) born in.

  b) convert.

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  20yearfader

  Born in....sigh
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  just talked to another elder! god is good

  by unstopableravens in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  i will give more details but i was honest about what i believed, talked about fds;born again and relgion.

  im busy now but will give good details soon!

  i really feel happy!.

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  20yearfader

  When they come back with the jc unstopable you should answer the door in full raven war paint yelling to the top of your lungs and a machete in your hands and say i only planned on having one of you for dinner i guess i can make room for 2.Lol dont do that i'm only joking i wouldn't meet with those snake oil salesmen keep it real brother and go RAVENS!!!!
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  An interesting YouTube experiment, JWs straying onto an "apostate" channel

  by cedars in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  some time ago i uploaded a video to youtube that was a medley of different young ones singing "listen obey and be blessed.

  " as you can imagine, it's rather creepy.. here it is.... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ou802omcnvq.

  my intention in making the video was twofold.

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  This song like all the newer songs in the KH sounds terrible even minus the subconscience obey instruction every song that wasnt in the old pink songbooks is just terrible,who is composing this mess do they even have eardrums?All the songs sound like someone just mashed there fingers on the piano and recorded offbeat words...sigh.My wife who was never a jw listens to these songs and says wtf!! they sound like cats in a sack nuff said.
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  An interesting YouTube experiment, JWs straying onto an "apostate" channel

  by cedars in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  some time ago i uploaded a video to youtube that was a medley of different young ones singing "listen obey and be blessed.

  " as you can imagine, it's rather creepy.. here it is.... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ou802omcnvq.

  my intention in making the video was twofold.

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  20yearfader

  This song like all the newer songs in the KH sounds terrible even minus the subconscience obey instruction every song that wasnt in the old pink songbooks is just terrible,who is composing this mess do they even have eardrums?All the songs sound like someone just mashed there fingers on the piano and recorded offbeat words...sigh.My wife who was never a jw listens to these songs and says wtf!! they sound like cats in a sack nuff said.
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  January 2013 warns parents to resist contact with df'd children again

  by stuckinlimbo in

  1. watchtower
  2. bible

  see page 15-16. full of "straw men" like:.

  * do not blame yourself it is the child that jehovah blames - parents do not care whose fault it is they just want their child not to be killed by god.

  * it is ok for parents to hope their df'd child returns - was anybody really asking if that was wrong?.

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  The WT society faithfully destroying families for over 100 years.I hope the ones on the fence wake up and say no more this is the final straw.
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  Which of the 5 weekly meetings did you hate the most?

  by RULES & REGULATIONS in

  1. watchtower
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  it was always stressed that the five weekly meetings were like the fingers on your hand.

  each one was just as important as the next.

  which of the meetings were the most boring,bothersome and difficult to listen to?

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  20yearfader

  Oh and i hated the 1 hour public talk and wt study i became a master at sleeping with one eye open.The eye on the side of my parents would remain open whilst my other one was completely closed,i like to think i was one of the very few witnesses that could do that lol.
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  Which of the 5 weekly meetings did you hate the most?

  by RULES & REGULATIONS in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  it was always stressed that the five weekly meetings were like the fingers on your hand.

  each one was just as important as the next.

  which of the meetings were the most boring,bothersome and difficult to listen to?

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  20yearfader

  I would have to say field service, i hated feild service that was one of the reasons my father kicked me out of the house at 17.I remember getting public reproofed and hearing about my restrictions hoping and praying field service was now a restriction.My father ran down the list of what i could and couldn't do, couldn't carry the mic,couldn't comment at the meetings.....but the quickest way back he said was to increase my field service time i was like noooooooooooo.Why the hell would you want me in field service knocking on doors if i sinned?So after 4 months of posting 1 or no hours he told me to hit the road little did he know he set me on the path to freedom.
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  old JW friends

  by d in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  i see some old jw's i grew up with and feel bad for them.

  the reason is because they seem so lost and misguided.

  do you ever feel the same way?.

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  indeed i knew a friend that left around the same time i did he sold drugs got robbed and killed a person during the robbery he was sentenced to 20 years he attended meetings in prison. I recently saw him at one of my relatives funerals, he greeted me warmly i saw him on facebook i sent an invite and he told me "i have to check your status in the org".Hello are you serious no matter what iv'e done i havent commited a murder. Even in that org a murder in good standing is superior to an inactive or df person...so sad