((((Dutchie))))
My deepest sympathies. I cannot imagine the pain of losing your soul mate. Some would say be happy that you had him for the time you did...some have to go through life just imagining what it must be like to find the love of your life. You not only met him, but married him and had beautiful children with him. May you find comfort and happiness in seeing him in their eyes.
think41self
This side of Eden, whether we realize it or not, we feel the stain on our souls, and at every opportunity, we try to scrub it away with steel-wool guilt.