Here is what Doug Mason advised me:
suavojr, I have travelled the road you describe. Remain true to yourself; respect the right of others to their beliefs, and ask for the same in return. Break free from the regimentation imposed by religious leaders; recognise that all wriitngs, including the Bible, are the imaginings and assumptions of men and women. Theology, eschatology, soteriology are interesting but nothing more. It does not matter what you think of God - every believer has a different idea anyway - what matters is that if there is a God, what she/he/it thinks of you. Do good to others, be satisfied that during your life you have made a contribution to someone. Go outside and hear the birds, smell the flowers, marvel at nature, the clouds, the real things that matter. As I said, I have travelled the journey you speak of. There is the desire to dip the toe in the water but to hang on to the land. I have gone from rabid believer to agnostic, probably verging as an atheist. I have survived the journey, just as you shall. Know with complete confidence that the feared Armagedon and the Divine "Coming" will not take place. I wish you freedom - freedom from religion, from the pressures of religionists, freedom from people who want you to feel guilty. Break out. Doug |
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