Tammy, thanks for responding to my post. Like cofty I still struggle to understand how you can piece together you beliefs, partly from the bible and partly from communicating with a spirit, in this case Jesus.
There are many cases of people sincerely believing in invisible beings and hearing their voice. My mother was a spirit medium for many years. She claimed to be threatened by demons for years until she became a JW. Then Jehovah's spirit kept them at bay. The demons ignored my father.
I once sat with a woman who told me that we all have a guardian angel. She could see mine standing behind me. We had been knights in a previous life. We fought together and I saved his life. Apparently the bond between us was strong and he had been watching over me since my birth. He protected me to show his gratitude. She told me many details as he relayed them to her.
Why didn't he protect me from my violent mother? I asked.
He is shaking his head and looks very sad. She replied
I said, 'Whenever I phone my bank they ask me a few security questions to make sure I am genuine. To be sure you aren't making this up, could you ask the knight to tell you my mother's maiden name. If the knight can, I will know this is genuine.
She looked passed me for a while before speaking in a faint voice. 'He is fading we are losing him.
What happend? I asked.
He has told me he will not be put to the test.
Then why didn't the knight tell me that himself?
You can only hear him if you believe in him!
There we are Tammy. I have no doubt that this woman believed she was genuine and probably believed she saw a knight. But sincerity and faith do not in themselves make a belief true. My concern is that you are placing a great deal of trust and building your life around something that to me and many others is illusory.
Nowadays, I try not to get involved in heavy debate with Christians on this site. I have no desire to cause anyone to lose something they value. On the other hand to say nothing would be remiss.
All the best Trevor