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  The Pit of Despair, or going to the DC

  by dissonance_resolved in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  so our dc is coming up and my level of anxiety and depression is through the roof.

  i've been fading and have noticed that when i don't go the meetings, i'm happy, calm and positive, but when i do go, it takes at least a week to recover.

  so the prospect of three straight days has me in an absolute panic.

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  dissonance_resolved

  So our DC is coming up and my level of anxiety and depression is through the roof. I've been fading and have noticed that when I don't go the meetings, I'm happy, calm and positive, but when I do go, it takes at least a week to recover. So the prospect of three straight days has me in an absolute panic. Now that I understand the methods being used, my brain goes into overdrive with every sentence I hear being punctuated by my mind saying "Behavior Control!", "Information Control!", "Logical Fallacy!", "Unsubstantiated Reference!", "Emotion Control!", "Hate Speech!". Watching my family taking it all in without question makes it even worse. Maybe I should get little flash cards and just hold them up as appropriate.

  Any ideas on how to survive? I'm seriously having completely irrational thoughts, like, "What would happen if I watched Harry Potter on my iPad during the session? Is that a disfellowshipping offense?" I know glass bottles aren't allowed at the convention site, but could I fill a plastic water bottle with vodka? That'd be great for me until one of the kids wanted a drink of water. Maybe I could accidentally trip and fall down the stairs on the first day and break some bones. How about just lighting a cigarette during the drama? Or a cigar, that would be even better. Anything, anything to just get away.

  Yeah, I'm totally losing it. The only thing I'm hanging onto is that this will be my last DC. I calculated recently that I've spent an entire year of my life going to conventions and assemblies. A year!!! Never more.
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  Where are all the new members?

  by Captain Obvious in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  with the changes in doctrine being fully unveiled at the dc this year, i expected many to wake up.

  the dcs have been going on for a month now, i fully expected to be welcoming new members by now!

  am i just being impatient?

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  I woke up bc of the new doctrine and am still around. I haven't been posting much bc I'm trying to deal with the chaos of my entire life unravelling before my eyes. Our DC is coming up soon and the prospect is just sending me into a tailspin. No one else seems to care much about the changes- they usually don't know about it and when I tell them, they just say "huh.". My entire world view has changed and all they say is "huh."
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  I9s for volunteers

  by dissonance_resolved in

  1. jw
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  can you think of any reason why they would start making bethel volunteers complete i9s?

  (us work authorization forms).

  no compensation is received so why would it be considered employment?.

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  dissonance_resolved

  Does that mean that the value of the housing and food becomes taxable income?
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  I9s for volunteers

  by dissonance_resolved in

  1. jw
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  can you think of any reason why they would start making bethel volunteers complete i9s?

  (us work authorization forms).

  no compensation is received so why would it be considered employment?.

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  Yes, I know for a fact that Bethel is now requesting I9s for temporary assignments.
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  I9s for volunteers

  by dissonance_resolved in

  1. jw
  2. experiences

  can you think of any reason why they would start making bethel volunteers complete i9s?

  (us work authorization forms).

  no compensation is received so why would it be considered employment?.

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  dissonance_resolved

  Can you think of any reason why they would start making Bethel volunteers complete I9s?(US work authorization forms). No compensation is received so why would it be considered employment?
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  So, Whats the real reason JWs are no concessions open at the DC and are discouraged from supporting nearby vendors?

  by BU2B in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  so ever since they discontinues the food service at the assemblies and dcs, jws have been "lovingly encouraged" to pack a light lunch to eat.

  the secretary at the hall that i am held hostage in said during the service meeting that even a sub would be too heavy to eat, and that a light salad was the best option.

  what do you fine people think is the real reason why, in the absence of food service, jws are told to not leave the building at lunch?

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  dissonance_resolved

  I think it must also have something to do with liability. E.g. Witness buys a hot dog from a nearby stand, chokes on hotdog and dies. They weren't following instructions so it's their own responsibility and family has no recourse. If, on the other hand, convention attendees were allowed to go out to lunch because no food was served onset and choked on a hotdog, I think there would easily be grounds for a lawsuit.

  Bu2b you have a PM
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  Is it a sign from Jehovah or just irony?

  by dissonance_resolved in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  so i signed up to volunteer at a local urban community center- first time i've ever volunteered for a non-jw effort.

  i thought i would end up cleaning, organizing, something like that, but the first thing they wanted us to do was go door to door in the neighborhood handing out flyers!

  face palm...

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  Diets- too true. The flyers were just for an arts festival. It was so hard to turn off the programming. "We face so many problems in our day to day life- but this arts festival reminds us of what's really important.". "Many people feel arts festivals are not for them- have you ever felt that way?". " Like many, I've felt uncomfortable attending arts festivals in the past- so many unfamiliar art forms. But notice what this flyer says..." " We're encouraging people in the neighborhood to think about the state of art today- do you feel that art is meeting our cultural needs? Notice what this flyer says...."
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  Family is drawing the line in the sand

  by dissonance_resolved in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  so my family has obviously been noticing over the past several months that i've been missing meetings and fs.

  i've had excuses sometimes, but not others, so my parents are definitely getting that this is more than a long bout of illnesses or fatigue.

  i just received an email invitation to join them in service this weekend.

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  Crisis averted with the family, at least for now.

  sarahsmile- re my hubby, from the conversations we've had, I know he's not feeling the same way. He responds with the usual JW programmed answers, thought stopping, etc. there's so much at stake with the kids being involved, that I'm really just scared. If my parents draw a line in the sand and I can't cross it, then so be it. But I must be on the same side as my kids. Their future depends on it.
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  I know this sounds crazy but, what if?

  by earthfire in

  1. watchtower
  2. beliefs

  so i've been thinking about my jw family members a lot lately, especially since i just saw them a couple of weeks ago at my youngest sisters wedding.

  with all the current animosity towards apostates that seems to be more aggressive than usual it hit me when i saw this posted on fb today.

  would it be possible for the gb to demand that jw's kill apostates?

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  dissonance_resolved

  Well, at a recent meeting, a sister commented, "So if the Governing Body ever asks us to do something that doesn't seem right, we just need to trust them and follow their direction and do it anyway.". Quote unquote, verbatim. Like lemmings.
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  Is it a sign from Jehovah or just irony?

  by dissonance_resolved in

  1. jw
  2. friends

  so i signed up to volunteer at a local urban community center- first time i've ever volunteered for a non-jw effort.

  i thought i would end up cleaning, organizing, something like that, but the first thing they wanted us to do was go door to door in the neighborhood handing out flyers!

  face palm...

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  dissonance_resolved

  So I signed up to volunteer at a local urban community center- first time I've ever volunteered for a non-JW effort. I thought I would end up cleaning, organizing, something like that, but the first thing they wanted us to do was go door to door in the neighborhood handing out flyers! Face palm..