Diamond. My wife pushed me away from my morning coffee, and newspaper and insisted I reply to your post.
You are in a tough situation, and a too common one. I read your post from last year to get a bit of history on your background. It's Sunday, are you going today?
I did the slow fade in 86, 2 years after my marriage in 84. I had only been baptized for a over a year, even though I was raised a witness. I used the old "working late" excuse for quite a while [ even though it seemed to occur more often on Tuesday, and Thursdays ]. It was quite a tense situation, and almost led to our break up.
When our 2nd daughter was born in 90, I starting having guilt feelings and made a half-heartened attempt to return, but my heart was never in it. However, I used that time, while I was still semi-active, to subtly, and slowly, draw my wife out. I avoided raising " the subject ' directly myself, but whenever the opportunity arose I would ask questions, and make suggestions, hoping she would draw the same conclusions I had arrived at.
By 1994, 2 years after our son was born, we had issues with the dispensing of the blood card during the the Service Meeting [and later subsequent surgery for our son], my wife announced in tears, while driving home, " I am never going to set foot in that building again ".
There were still a lot of "trials and tribulations" since that fateful evening, but the main thing was we were of like mind.
My advice to you is, while a slow fade may be what you are leaning towards, I suggest you try the semi-witness mode, for a while. There seem to be a lot on this board who are doing the same thing for one reason or another. Hopefully this will give you time for your wife to come to the same conclusions you have. The way I looked at was, it was my own version of "theocratic warfare". In the mean time it will keep the pressure off, and allow your daughter to sleep better at night.
It bothered me somewhat, to "play the role" , but I figured a lot of the MS's and Elders were doing the same, but for their own selfish reasons. And as for field service, I kept active, most of the time, mostly through family bible studies [ not always WT publications either ] and the odd Saturday morning in FS. If I did not agree with the title material of the Awake for that week I would offer the Watchtower, or some other publication, whether or not it was " the feature of the month" !
My wife and I are hoping the best for you and your family. Please feel free to email me.
Regards
xjw_b12 & calamityjane