HONEY---WELCOME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I would like to briefly share my experience. I was DF'd for about 1 1/2 years before I got reinstated. I must say it was the lonliest time and scarriest time in my life. I thought that the "true God Jehovah" personally rejected me and that there was something really wrong in my heart spiritually. I was reminded of this everytime I was SHUNNED openly by so-called loving borthers and sisters. I tried twice to commit suiced by overdose---I don't think I wanted to---but the pain was almost unbearable. When the fateful day came on a thurs. night meeting for me to be reinstated, I felt sick to my stomach as my name was announced and even sicker when the "friends" began to hug and touch and talk to me again. They were not there for my LOWEST times and now they all appeared like HYPOCRITES!!!! In the interim of trying to get myself reinstated, I was starting to get some good help and counseling (with worldly people of course), and I began to realize they are not all "bad" etc. That fateful thursday night I left the meeting early to never return as Jesus' words kept echoing "by their fruits you will recognize them". And I knew they did not have "the truth".
Since 1997 I have met some of the most wonderful people who have morals and standards and integrtiy. I met and xJw with whom I have a relationship like I never imagined I would. It's BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!! We certainly do understand where we came from, and it hasn't been without pain. Making your way in "the world" can be scarry but every unsure painful step of the way has been absolutely WORTH IT!!!!!
I wish you well and all the best in your life---I guess I wasn't really that brief, but I know how lonely it can be when one is disfellowshipped. please continue to post. There are many good people here. you're welcome to email me anytime: [email protected]
Sisteract