Posts by zanex

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problem

by zanex in

i now have to inform my parents that i am getting a divorce.

am not really looking forward to it.

i already told my sister and suprisingly enough she supports me!

I now have to inform my parents that I am getting a divorce. Am not really looking forward to it. I already told my sister and suprisingly enough she supports me! That was kinda odd but anyway I know that the reaction from dear ol mom and dad isnt goin to be as pleasant. Worst part is that I am gonna do it by email. I dont think I could handle an actual phone call with them. I know that I shudnt care at all what my parents do or dont think about me but some part of me still wants to believe that somewhere inside that stony wall of dubdom that my parents have built up is a soft spot for me. Of course the other 98 percent of me isnt quite so optimistic. Anybody got any ideas as to how to break it to them? I am out of ideas this first 2 weeks has been the hardest 2 weeks of my life hahahaha. Glad to be away from HER but miss my daughter. Anyway..I am delirious at this point only got about an hour of sleep last nite or shud i say this morning. Anyway there it is...comments, suggestions, a bad joke perhaps?

-Z-

23

No love

by Yerusalyim in

jw
friends

just feel like i need to vent.

my wife accused me of seeming not to enjoy being around her.

this was an accurate assessment on her part though i didn't acknowlege that.

zanex

yeru...only ONE way out that makes her totally gone...show her the door and plant a nice square boot in her arse and dont see her again til court to get the custody worked out. Being walked on builds up after a while until it decides to make like mount vesuvius and blow its top. Short, Sweet and to the point.

-Z-

13

divorce....

by zanex in

well, it finally happened...me and my wife decided to go our separate ways.

i left on sunday.

it just wasnt a healthy relationship.

zanex

lilacs:thx...I may drop in occaisionally I dunno at this point...
lisa: Ill give ya a buzz soon as I can.
dutchie: I think I'll be ok just not at the moment...and its even cheaper to not say anything to anyone. This wont be the first time I have been totally on my own. Thanx tho fer bein supportive. bye...

-Z-

13

divorce....

by zanex in

well, it finally happened...me and my wife decided to go our separate ways.

i left on sunday.

it just wasnt a healthy relationship.

zanex

well, it finally happened...me and my wife decided to go our separate ways. I left on sunday. It just wasnt a healthy relationship. We are gonna stay "friends" for our daughter's sake but I am currently surfin friends couches..sigh. I think its funny the way HER family has bent over backwards to make sure that she is ok while MY parents cudnt give a rats ass about me cuz of the df thing. Am doing ok...I feel good tho. Better than I have felt in a long time. Not sure why I am postin this up it just kinda feels like this is as close to a "dysfunctional support group" as I am ever gonna get. I may take a leave of absence from this board for a while til I get my head back in order. So til whenever...this is zanex signin off

-Z-

14

Hello

by raven101 in

jw
friends

hello all, referred here from ex-jw pagans site.

looks pretty active and interesting, far too late for any witty rapport on my part but hello just the same!

zanex

welcome! life gets pretty interestin round here...heh heh ;)

-Z-

21

I want a Palm Pilot.

by Princess in

jw
friends

i have decided i need a palm pilot or something like it.

my husband and i run a small plumbing company.

when i leave the house, i forward the phone to my cell.

zanex

I dont think I could live without my palm..it is the palm model m125 with the expanision capabilites.

-Z-

11

Being truly free

by Introspection in

some of the messages on the board have prompted me to think about this a bit, seeing as how it appears to be a theme that resurfaces every so often.

actually, one of the reasons i'm posting a separate thread is that the other ones which brings this up is usually about something more specific and has gotten really long, and to be perfectly frank i don't have the time to read through it, but i think the issue is an important one.. we can be free from the wts physically, but a certain pattern of thinking sticks with us a bit longer as i'm sure many of us are well aware.

naturally, when you're out you're going to go out into the world and explore, doing this and that, the "normal" people stuff you might say.

zanex

For so long I have always viewed that brainwashing as a fuel that fires the anger which has always given me the drive and the forward motion to maintain some semblance of normalcy and sanity. Always an obstacle that gave me fire but I am at a different level now with the onset of this board. lol Kind of a general acceptance of that which I always called insanity but is now something else. I am not sure where i go from this point but I am sure that the journey will be interesting. Maybe I can be a jedi member one day too...(grin) got a long long wayz to go.

-Z-

11

Being truly free

by Introspection in

some of the messages on the board have prompted me to think about this a bit, seeing as how it appears to be a theme that resurfaces every so often.

actually, one of the reasons i'm posting a separate thread is that the other ones which brings this up is usually about something more specific and has gotten really long, and to be perfectly frank i don't have the time to read through it, but i think the issue is an important one.. we can be free from the wts physically, but a certain pattern of thinking sticks with us a bit longer as i'm sure many of us are well aware.

naturally, when you're out you're going to go out into the world and explore, doing this and that, the "normal" people stuff you might say.

zanex

Good idea. It is just that process that one has to go through to achieve that "comfort level" of being ok with one's demons. That state of mental utopia is a marvellous thought and the ideal but the actual journey is the tricky part. I like this thread. Have just recently been "coping" with some of those "demons" of the past. Yet if I look at those "demons' not as demons but as a part of the whole that I have become as a HUMAN then maybe I dont have to call them demons anymore. Just a subsection of me as a whole. Thanx intro..this thread caught my eye and perked my deep thoght motor running. I feel more alive...

-Z-

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check out your horoscope

by peaceloveharmony in

your horoscopes, onion style :) .

aries (mar.

you will be loud, obnoxious and a little erratic this week but somehow, this will only add to your charm.

zanex

aries here and DAMN...this week definitely fits THAT description...

-Z-

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WANTING to Believe in God

by dobby in

jw
friends

has anyone had this experience?.

after letting go of my beliefs as a jw, i felt the only alternative was to be atheist.

or maybe it is just logical to there is no god when i am only listening to my mind and not my heart.

zanex

I am not sure WHAT I believe...agnosticism is a nice blanket...belive that something exists just dont know what...or dont have the faith to buy into anything...either way thats where I am at...

-Z-