enterd 1978 and the chains of the society turned into hot pokers oh say 91' 92'ish...Thats when I got the big DF.
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Posts by zanex
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POWER---what is your greatest manifestion?
by Terry inwhat is your power?.
what is the source?
who has the power you crave?.
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zanex
the greatest manifestation of my power is the hard core desire to NEVER return to the society. THAT is my power...that which enables me to continue my journey away from the wtbs and towards the TRUE meaning of power-survival. -Z-
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vivid memory with confusing contradiction...
by zanex ini had a very clear dream the other night and it continues to play itself out in my mind again and again...i can recall with sharp clarity years ago when i was 12 and very much impressed with my father...he turned to me and said something i will never forget...i had asked him what he wanted...just in general and he told me that he wanted "more" he was not real clear as to what the "more" was and at the time i didnt understand but now, pushing 30, i know what he meant by that.
at the same time tho he is a jw elder and locked into a box that will never allow him to achieve the ultimate fruition of what he wants.
as a member of that org the one thing that has always set him apart as a person is the one thing that he will never be allowed to cultivate...the desire to learn more and to be set apart by that study and wisdom is something that he has always thrived on so it seems rather odd to me that he would do something so contradictory to who he is as a person...lol.
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zanex
was going through old posts and re-read talesins commentary on my dream and I have to say that I hadnt quite thought of it that way but it DOES seem accurate doesnt it? I kinda had to stop and think about that one. I have tried to think back to my days as a 12 year old but have yet to come up with some type of solid reason as to why i kept going back to that age. its something to think about though....if I think of anything else Ill post it up...thanx again! -Z- ...on a side note I havent had much of any dreams lately...
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30...who woulda thunk it
by zanex inwell i did it...i actually made it to age 30. today, april 12th 1975 i was born and i am still trying to full comprehed the feeling that comes along with it.
my office threw me a party and i am having another one on fri, more the drunken type of gathering.
it is a good week but a part of me will never fully be able to comprehend the simple feeling of "birthday" lol..anyhow..i'm still alive!
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Thanx for the Birthday wishes ALL! Every year that birthday comes around and every year since my df'ing I have gotten nervous around my bday. Maybe one day that will stop..but for now it is enough that I get plenty of good will wishers from all manner of different places. Salud to all of us....
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30...who woulda thunk it
by zanex inwell i did it...i actually made it to age 30. today, april 12th 1975 i was born and i am still trying to full comprehed the feeling that comes along with it.
my office threw me a party and i am having another one on fri, more the drunken type of gathering.
it is a good week but a part of me will never fully be able to comprehend the simple feeling of "birthday" lol..anyhow..i'm still alive!
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Well I did it...I actually made it to age 30. Today, April 12th 1975 I was born and I am still trying to full comprehed the feeling that comes along with it. My office threw me a party and i am having another one on fri, more the drunken type of gathering. It is a good week but a part of me will never fully be able to comprehend the simple feeling of "birthday" lol..anyhow..I'm STILL ALIVE! Despite what the elders said...(chuckles) (thinks, maybe the best revenge is my being able to live a happy, stable post-witness life without taking blatant hostilities against them. Whatevah..lol way too deep...30...here goes nothing!
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calling all young single men
by devinsmom inwew, well my divorce is finally...final, as of today and what a long hard road it has been, and unfortunatly more hardships are to come, since we have a child together.
my ex tried to delay it just yesterday by faxing a sloppy handwritten note to the judge, to tell him he couldnt make it because he doesnt have a license,(suspended for dwi) and hasnt attended any of the hearings at all.
he owes me over $5,000 for child support (deadbeat dad).
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zanex
lol...what a way to advertise. Gotta love it..:)
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New here...
by smorgle inhello everyone... this is my first post.
i stumbled upon this board a few hours ago, so i trolled for a bit and i like the discussions..
smorgle
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zanex
welcome to our little corner of insanity/sanity depending on your perspective. :)
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Thanks!!!
by Low-Key Lysmith inat the risk of soundy mushy, i would just like to thank everyone for being a part of this board and making it what it is.
in the 14 years since i have been out of the b'org, i have pretty much had to deal with building myself back up by myself.
in the short time that i have been a part of jwd, i have realized that there was a lot of things that i had just repressed and locked away.
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zanex
I second that motion...this board has been a good place to see that the insanity is not localized to our own minds...a chaotic close-knit congregation of corrupted...lol. This boards been good to me too...
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About Terri Schiavo and Disability
by Yizuman inrwagoner wrote: kennedy, f. (1942).
the problem of social control of the congenital defective - education, sterilization, euthanasia.
american journal of psychiatry, 99, 13-16.. .
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zanex
(chuckles) (shakes head...) yiz, it seems as though an objective opinion is best given and personal innuendo is best left at home...long time since I jumped on one of yer threads...looks like nuthin's changed. lol.
as has been mentioned disabled people have more rights in todays world than ever before. Bein deaf is no longer a debilitating handicap...comparing it to the vegetable woman seems a bit out of context but hey whatever floats yer boat.
(zanex of the been around deaf people forever class)
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recommend some new music
by tijkmo in.
have you found some new band or artist that you would reccomend we listen to...for this to work we would need to know what style of music you normally listen to and then we can know if its what we would enjoy...eg.
i like pink floyd...genesis...yes...etc.....................and have just found mercury rev......brill
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zanex
hmmm...well I have been listenin to a band called crossfade...just some good ol rock. Am always in the mood for pink floyd tho...and when I am just bein good ol zan I break out the Korn...sigh...some things just cant change..
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