josephus,
i can relate to what you say even though the sudden way i left watchtower world never left me with much personal anger.
just a practical suggestion - I too work alone and for many years had a skylight manufacturing and installation round. One thing that helped me tremendously was having cups of tea in the homes of strangers. For years I spilled my guts about my weird life and listened to peoples personal stories. I soon went from the cult isolation of seeing people as basically bad to knowing them as, in the most part, well intentioned and honourable.
Sounds to me like you need about 200 gallons of tea and a few cwt of biscuits with a thousand or so people .. one at a time. I hope the people you do work for offer you a brew now and then? If so say yes and talk about your life with strangers it's the most wonderful soul releasing thing for folk like us.
warm regards, unclebruce, who's had grown men cry on his shoulders more than once.
PS: It's the name 'josephus' that gets our attention ya noong!