3 major Anxieties:
1) giving talks
2) door to door so bad it would affect my bodily functions .
3) High anxiety for fear they would find out that I did'nt belong in the org.
Man what stress to be put through for 14 yrs.
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Anxieties ??? what was yours while you were a JW ???
by run dont walk inwas there anything in particular that made your stomach turn upside down in knots while you were a jw ?????.
armageddon ???.
giving talks ???.
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I feel like such a fool!
by Swan ini feel like such a fool!.
i was spoofed this week by a 13-year-old girl.
she approached me through yahoo and led me to believe that i had finally made contact with one of my family.
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(((((((Swan)))))
I am so sorry that you were put through all this. Makes me angry. And you know what Swan I probably bought into it myself. One hopes so badly for connection with family. And to compound the pain. It's unreal.
I'm not sure I would handle it the way you did. i would probably blow the poor child out of the water. Thats if this person is a child? It was totally wrong!!
Can I make you a cup of tea and have you seat in a rocking chair. to help soothe your pain. be gentle with yourself.
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My Spirituality
by oldcrowwoman inmy spirituality is very personal and i am very protective.
for a very good reason after been violated and almost snuff my spirit within me from years of abuse.
i call the wise womyn within.
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Some one asked me if this drumming group is a organization. No organization. Its a group of women who have similar interests and is supportive with one and others spiritual path.
Another question what is "WFS"? "Women for Sobriety" is a program dealing with a womans's self-esteem and self-worth issues. It's congruent to AA. but is kept separated. Many women use both programs. This program has been around since 1975. Like AA both programs can be directed to those who are getting out of abusive situations. Whether its alcohol , co-dependant relationships, drugs and religious org.
Michele~~~~~~~~~~~
"To gain that conscious contact with god. As the 11th step says. Then eventually we become the teachers and no longer the student."
I personally see this as a flaw. If we are teachers, whats their to learn? Unless you see this place as "paradise"? I see the roles reversed many, many times over throughout ones life time. Basically human nature.
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No More Anonymity
by Francois ini have posted at this site for over two years.
i have posted nearly 6,000 posts here, and for the most part i've posted as francois, or i've not identified myself with a screen name at all.
i've never directly identified myself.
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I like the idea of celebrating coming out party. More ways than one!
Kathi Brown aka oldcrowwoman Minneapolis, Minnesota
Today I can say my name. Because my children are adults now.
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The GAME between the Gods!
by Michele Lyon inthe game between the gods!
im bored with the term- sheep.
hence, i was going to use gerbils but i realized that word got used up in hollywood!
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Why has 2003 seen so much death?
by TresHappy intoday i walked into my office and learned my head boss at the college had died of a heart attack the previous friday night.
absolutely devastated about this.
actually all of us who worked with him weren't fond of him at times, but no one wished bad things upon him.
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My condolences goes out you and those have experienced losses. Yeah I don't know if its the 2003 year thing.
I don't know if its a cycle. Or because of a larger population. Or if I'm going into my silver years more aware of the mortality rate.
I too experience 3 co workers , a paramedic heart attack, Nurse from cancer and a security guard took his life. A aunt from alcoholism recently.
In my work environment I see life, babies born, nasty wrecks and death. And tonight I wanted to go to bed cause today is one of those hard days. I just wanted time out. I said no I need not to carry this to bed with me. Writing seems to help put it out there to the universe and to let go in some way.
The tears are streaming down my face. 3 month old died suspect neglect. And a 3 yr old a car wreck. Been hanging with me all afternoon. I stopped to see my 4 month old granddaughter and 3 1/2 yr old Grand son. And just held them for a long time. Life is so precious . I wonder why certain situations happens life? I have no answers! How helpless children are and vulnerable.
I am angry that the baby was not being taken care of. He did not deserve it!! Some days I wonder? I feel sad!
I am very sorry!!
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What kind of fairy are you? *** Fluff Alert ***
by Elsewhere inwhat kind of male faerie are you?
take the male faerie quiz.
what kind of female faerie are you?
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This woman is the Pillywiggins fairy. I minmick human behaviour but will not prank!! (snicker*)
I love to ride Bees from flower to flower.
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WOW, my first real birthday since I was baptized at 29....
by berylblue intomorrow, august 12
does that make me 30?
a little birthday story....
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROSEMARIE
(how many candles?)
Bring on the. And 's galore. Have a good!!! You deserve it. And many more to come!!!
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Mars closet to the earth in recorded history, Astrology
by cat1759 inon august 27, 2003 mars will be closest to earth than at any other time in recorded history.
it will be at 34,646,418 miles away from earth.. mars went retrograde on july 30,2003 to september 28,2003. mars is the warrior planet.
he represents applied energy in your birthcharts.
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((((((Cat)))))
Thank you I appreciate the info.
When does mercury go into retrograde? Feels like the old days of PMS. Helps me to go with the flow instead of trying going up stream without a paddle !!! Wonder why mechanical things break down, communications go haywire and puter's jam up.
I don't have to wonder why people are stressed!!! Cause the planets are off. Working in the ER I blame the planets are off kilter. A good scape-goat.
There is a definite pattern with the full working in the ER and with me personally as well. I try to ride with it.
I have had my chart done. Pretty impressed. To me its guide or a tool to use.
Like to hear more Cathy.
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If ExJW's had a Theme Song....
by Frannie Banannie in.
would it go like this?......
they say the neon lights are bright on (the) broadway...... they say there's always music in the air...... but how ya gonna make some time..... when you ain't got but one thin dime.... and one thin dime won't even shine your shoes........ frannie b
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" You can't get what you want, You can't get what you want but you can get what you need."
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