Blondie!
Your knowledge of the Bibel is very impressive. I believe that you have been a witnesses for many years. I will always turn to you when I need a Bible qoute or a reference from the societys viewpoint. I know that you are the only one that could give a correct answer.
But it looks like you know all these things and still belive there is an answer in the Bible texts?! What do you know about "higher Bibel criticism". What do you know about what science today know about the origin of all these texts? Do you have got a chance to study the "original" text often stored in the Vatican library? Who were the person that actually put alla these letters together? What did he exclude as "not being canonical?". It would be nice to have a conversation with you on these subjects.
Bugbear