You are going to lose something.
THis is not a pain-free situation, including your life right now. You are in distress trying to have everything, and you will not be able to keep it all.
NOw, after having just been brutally honest, I will tell you I chose the boy and we have been together over 2 decades.
My parents and I have a "cordial," but somewhat strained relationship. Fortunately, my sister and brother all eventually left, too, and are free of the bullshite.
Try to fade or don't try to fade, but know thyself, first. What kinds of distress can you tolerate; losing your family of origin? Losing your mind living a JW life? Losing a person who might (or might not) turn out to be the best thing that has ever happened to you?
Choose what you can stand to lose, but understand; there will be pain involved. Nobody gets out of this cult pain-free.