I really relate to what you said, Labellicker. All growing up in the JW's (1980's, 90's), I always felt like I didn't fit in with the JW's. So of course, you are constantly questioning yourself as to why you are never "good enough" to hang out with, be invited to things, or just generally fit in. I always fit in at school much better. School was actually a welcome escape! After a while, with maturity, and especially now looking back in hindsight, it all makes sense. There was absolutely NOTHING wrong with me, I was surrounded by cultist LOONS! They were all manipulative, egotistical, self-centered narcissists who thought everyone in the world was wrong, and THEY and they alone were right, and that YHWH God was going to vindicate them and they'd rule the world and pet pandas in the New Order, laughing over the dead bodies of the people who slammed the doors in their arrogant faces every Saturday morning.
I was surrounded by delusional, bible-thumping End Times cult nutcases, and I DID NOT fit in! I wasn't the problem, they were ! So many would stab each other in the backs and smile all the while. Ugh! So glad to be out of it I could do backflips down the middle of the street!!!