So, I’ve been out going on 10 years and at times I think about going back, but I can never muster the energy. Over the last few however, I’ve noticed that a lot of people who were in good standing, and pillars in the congregation and org are now df’d. Most know I’ve been out for a while and see that I’m doing pretty good and want to talk or get together. I’m polite in all, but really don’t want to hang out with the MFers that a few years ago looked at me like I was some syphilitic outcast. A good friend got divorced and df’d this year and wants to reconnect. I ignored him. I get stopped on the street and grin and walk away. Another guy I know was a rising star in the org. He was a pioneer for like thirty years, a sub Co, talks everywhere and now is some beaten down deleted old man. Am I the only one noticing that a lot of self righteous folks are now broken weeds?
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Is it me?
by MTSman inso, i’ve been out going on 10 years and at times i think about going back, but i can never muster the energy.
over the last few however, i’ve noticed that a lot of people who were in good standing, and pillars in the congregation and org are now df’d.
most know i’ve been out for a while and see that i’m doing pretty good and want to talk or get together.
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I'm Fed up and I can't take it anymore!
by MTSman ini was born in four gen, been d.f.d.
for about eight years now.
my father had always been a true company man, although more times than i can count, he's always been floppy.
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I was born in four gen, been D.F.d. for about eight years now. My father had always been a true company man, although more times than I can count, he's always been floppy. Like we never really had a family study on a consistent basis. That little thing annoyed the hell out of me. Doesn't really matter, but when we did have a family study it was always after a circuit assembly, or district convention when he was at his most self-righteous.
So, yesterday I stopped by parent's place because I hadn't seen their car in a few days. I called my mother and found out that my dad was in an accident and on top of that, my mom was in the hospital and no one bothered to tell me. Up until yesterday when I saw him sitting at the carts or wherever, I would stop and we'd talk. Nothing deep, and when I left I'd always say love you and leave. Today, I stop by to check up on him, and when I walked into his study room, he had one of the Org's pod casts on and I just knew what kind of reaction I was going to get. I smiled and said, "I was just checking up on you." To which he replied, "Why?"
"Because you're old and I care," I said.
"No need," he said and went on to tell me that the times I've had contact with him and mother is tearing her apart.
At that point I shook my head and walked out all the while he's telling me that he'll call me when something comes up.
I said, "Call me when he or my mother is in the hospital or dead." I'm done. I really love my family and friends that I left behind, but I just cannot stomach the self-righteousness. I can deal with the flip flops, and the whole 700 Clubifiying remake, but as far as the self-righteousness, can't do it. I've never been that way. I've always hated those who were that way and it appears that the more this fucking group evolves the more arrogant and self-righteous they get. I was so heated and hateful towards this fucking religion that I've pretty much resolved to never go back and therefore never talk to or see my parent's again.
Ugh!
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Experience You'll Never Hear at The Conventions: I write Porn Part Time and Pioneer!
by MTSman ini’m a pioneer in city of brotherly love.
(yeah i said my city.
don’t give a fuck) most pioneers who need extra money, get a part gig working as a security guard, barista, or making sandwiches for a few bucks an hour.
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LOL! These posts are funny!
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Experience You'll Never Hear at The Conventions: I write Porn Part Time and Pioneer!
by MTSman ini’m a pioneer in city of brotherly love.
(yeah i said my city.
don’t give a fuck) most pioneers who need extra money, get a part gig working as a security guard, barista, or making sandwiches for a few bucks an hour.
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I am an MTS Grad. Way back when no body knew what MTS was.
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Experience You'll Never Hear at The Conventions: I write Porn Part Time and Pioneer!
by MTSman ini’m a pioneer in city of brotherly love.
(yeah i said my city.
don’t give a fuck) most pioneers who need extra money, get a part gig working as a security guard, barista, or making sandwiches for a few bucks an hour.
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I’m a pioneer in City of Brotherly Love. (Yeah I said my city. Don’t give a fuck) Most pioneers who need extra money, get a part gig working as a security guard, barista, or making sandwiches for a few bucks an hour. Well, I found myself in need of some extra cash and was damned if I was going to some fucking sandwich shop, or sling overpriced coffee. I mean I’ve got a degree in English lit, with a concentration in creative writing, so I should be able to use the skills that I developed at the overpriced Ivy League University that I secretly attended.(Shh, don’t tell anyone) Right? Here’s the thing, I get bored very easy, so a job blogging, or aggregating the news, or doing some kind of journalistic writing wasn’t really for either. Quit a dilemma. Anyway, long story short, I started dabbling in erotica, to blow off steam, and got pretty good at it, so one day I trolled Craigslist and came across the ad; Can you write porn? I’m like, maybe. So I sent in a few samples of my past writing and a week later I got an e-mail saying that my erotic writing was exceptional. Never in a million years did I think I’d get a complement on my creatively using the words, fuck, suck, cunt, cock and pussy. So I was like hell yeah. I signed a contract and was told that I’d get .01 a word up to 5k words. Ok, so that’s thirty to fifty bucks a day. Cool, so how to start creatively writing sex?
Well one thing that helped me was my overbearing, religious upbringing as Jehovah’s Witness. I mean, in this fucking religion just thinking about tits and ass gets you in trouble. However, I had a large stash pornographic memories from my young adulthood due to my sinning. I mean according to the current Watchtower teachings I sinned greatly. The sin? I was addicted to porn. Scratch that. Addicted is such a strong word. I loved and love women. So if that’s a sin, fuck it. I’m going to hell. I mean hades. I mean, Gahanna. I mean, I’m erased from the book of life. Whatever!
Now these were the days that were way before internet, so in order to get my fix of tits and ass I had to visit bookstores and if I dared to, god forbid—buy a magazine, sneak it into my house and try to keep it in my room hidden from my parents. Most of the time, after a few jerk offs I was done and ended up throwing the magazine away a few days later. Did I feel guilty? Not really. Early on, I felt that sex and the attraction between men and women and boys and girls was something natural. I remember my father spazzing out because I stayed over a friend’s house and his sister had her friends over at the same time. What the fuck? I was always confused why sex was such a dirty word and thing. Where was I? Oh yeah writing porn, so my background and upbringing played a major part in my writing exceptional porn. Go figure.
I sent in a few stock stories that I had in my portfolio and quickly realized that if I wanted to keep the cash flow, I needed to quickly think of ways to continually create great sexualized characters and sexual situations. Now since I’m not that really that experienced in the romance department, (see second paragraph for explanation) I had to find inspiration. I needed enlightening as it were. Hmm. Well fortunately there is a plethora of free porn on the internet. And not just ordinary porn. Porn that I grew up on. Vintage porn. I belong to a site were members have lovingly scanned all the porn magazines that I used to sneak a peek at Tower Books, B. Dalton, Borders Barnes and Noble etc.
Looking back now with 20\20 hindsight I understand why magazines like Hustler, Penthouse and few other European mags were so groundbreaking. The pictorials were, of course sexually charged, but when looking at them through a different lens a storyline emerges. And they’re damn good stories as well. I mean really good. This was my lightbulb moment. Ding! So every day before I write, I scroll through my cache of hardcore pictorial and look for great stories. And you know what? It works. My client loves my writing and I make extra money doing a sinful thing that I love. Now, I just need to explain to my self-righteous girlfriend that looking at porn is part of my job.
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JW documentary; I mean Scientology Doc.
by MTSman inhttps://www.hbonow.com/docs/prod755137/going-clear-scientology
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Scientology and JW's
by MTSman inok, i just signed up for hbo now and after binge watching entourage and game of thrones, i clicked on going clear, which is an expose of l. ron hubbard and scientology.
i was mortified at the similarities of that cult and the witnesses.
it's crazy!
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So here's the link to the film. I hope it works.
https://www.hbonow.com/docs/PROD755137/going-clear-scientology
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Scientology and JW's
by MTSman inok, i just signed up for hbo now and after binge watching entourage and game of thrones, i clicked on going clear, which is an expose of l. ron hubbard and scientology.
i was mortified at the similarities of that cult and the witnesses.
it's crazy!
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Ok, I just signed up for HBO Now and after binge watching Entourage and Game of Thrones, I clicked on Going Clear, which is an expose of L. Ron Hubbard and Scientology. I was mortified at the similarities of that cult and the Witnesses. It's crazy! Crazy how, we sane people, and some times insane people, can succumb to bat-shit crazy theories and beliefs. I think I'm done. Honestly, I cannot see myself returning. -
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This Year's Memorial
by TD inperhaps i'm just getting older and crankier, but it really seems to me that the jw faith is deteriorating at an accelerated rate.. case in point: this year's memorial talk.
it was one of the most incoherent messes i've ever heard.
(and i've heard a lot of memorial talks over the last 50 years....).
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JW going to prestigious university
by ivanatahan ini've been debating this, and my mother (the spiritual head of my family, she even controls my father spiritually, who is an elder) doesn't seem to be starkly against me going to a prestigious university.
in fact, i've been going over my chances, and i'd say i have a pretty decent chance of going to my dream university, oxford university, to study philosophy, politics, and economics.
naturally i wouldn't tell my mother about me wanting to take the three most hated subjects of jws at a university that would bring me into bad relations with "spiritually sound jws".. do you guys know any ex-jw or knowledgeable jw who knows ttatt that went to a randall group or ivy league school?
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Dude, PPE is one hell of a major. I go to one of the three Ivys that offer it. It sounded so interesting and unique so I declared the major. First semester kicked my ass. Don't know how Oxford is but at Penn, the curve on the tests are just unreal. First test got a 86. Second, 53 and the final 21 and still got a fricken A-. Once you pass the core classes the interesting stuff begins. I majored in PPE and minored on English lit, graduating with 3.45 and got a finance job on Wall Street starting at 80grand. Mts. ain't give me that! Good luck and stick with it. There will be nights you're going to feel like giving up...don't. And don't listen to your crazy family.