It was like there was always a voice in my head never giving me relief.
That, is called insanity; and it is very much perpetuated and sustained by beliefs; be they religious, political, social or racial...
The good news is you see it. See it more. Nonjudgmentally see and watch the voice in your head -- even though it may not seem as intense and threatening as it once was.
There is the voice/the thoughts/the beliefs/the commentary and story weaved by the mind, and there is the healing sweet purity of that which sees it all. Keep watching and you will discover what you really are.
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