i missed seeing your comments , happy to have you back!!
what you just went through im going through right now. Hats off to you for having the courage to make a video, its time to take our life back!!! you go girl
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I'm somewhat back again
by Gojira_101 ini had to take a break from jwn here because after all the drama that unfolded over a certain new anti-wt organization i had to back off because i had unbearable emotions and "flashbacks" to being a jw and being bullied.
even though i didn't experience any direct bullying, seeing it happen caused all the negative emotions to come back because i felt like i was back at the kingdom hall.
so i just left for awhile.. i've been having to do a lot of soul searching lately and reevaluating my life.
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Family is drawing the line in the sand
by dissonance_resolved inso my family has obviously been noticing over the past several months that i've been missing meetings and fs.
i've had excuses sometimes, but not others, so my parents are definitely getting that this is more than a long bout of illnesses or fatigue.
i just received an email invitation to join them in service this weekend.
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Many have given you good advice . Personally i am in the same situation.. it is very heart breaking to be going through this with your family. Just remember they love you, so yes they do use emotional blackmail but in their eyes its all valid. so, much of what you have to do depends on you.
do you want to be genuine and be who you truly are or do you want to hide it from them?
we started by telling our family that we needed time ,that we needed to think and study to help us spiritually
we personally were open with my father , not acting "apostate"(hate that title) but showing him all of our concerns and what we found out.
well a few weeks later the rest of my family found out and just cut us off, they went to the extreme of changing there phone numbers so that we cant contact them.
they are adult so leave it up to them , put the ball in their court . tell them how much you still love them but that its up to them to them to accept you and even if they don't that you still love them unconditionally, so its there choice
it has been very sad to say the least. as you said it as if they all of a sudden died.
But you come to a point in life that you have to be true to yourself and others to be able to start life free of it all. i wish you the best ! i know exactly what your going through..you can pm me if you like!
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Howdy From Texas
by TexasEX inmy name may be a bit premature...because i'm actually still active within the org, but i guess you could say i've already "left" in my heart.
i'm just scared to take the first steps, because i don't know any "ex's" in my neck of the woods, and i'm very scared of loosing my family.
i just need someone to talk to.. .
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HI Howdy From Texas !!
Welcome to the forum, we are happy to have you among us:) i have also faded almost one year ago, so i know what you are going through . the best thing for you to do its to inform yourself as much as possible JWFACTS.COM is golden! it helped me so much to find TTATT . Its not easy i have lost all my family even though we are not DF'D but as i told my daughter yesterday we have to be true to ourselves , we cannot live life to please our families and put our desires on hold, if not you'll grow up feeling anger , resentment of a life that could have been. we all deserve to live the best life for ourselves!!
we live very close by so PM me if you like:)
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Howdy From Texas
by TexasEX inmy name may be a bit premature...because i'm actually still active within the org, but i guess you could say i've already "left" in my heart.
i'm just scared to take the first steps, because i don't know any "ex's" in my neck of the woods, and i'm very scared of loosing my family.
i just need someone to talk to.. .
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baltar447 YOU HAVE A PM:)
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Former Elder Michael J Norris IN CUSTODY
by Tylinbrando infbi and santa barbara agents arrested michael at the airport.
he is locked up in santa barbara county jail.
he awaits bail hearing and i intend on presenting evidence to revoke his $250,000.00 bail.. thanks to everyone for your encouragement and support!.
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this is crazy i know a lot of people from that hall! my dad use to do many talks there.
im so happy they got the bastard i hope it gets full punishment for what he did.
There is another elder ( i believe it was in 07 or 08) about 20 min from that hall that was found to have molested over 26 children over a couple of years , it was in the news and i know one of the elders that was in his judicial committee . but before they put him in custody him and his wife escaped to another city or country. he is still a fugitive. i hope he gets caught soon!!
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Why should God answer a prayer to get a job while atrocities happen everyday?
by BU2B ini had a conversation yesterday with my wife, who seems to think every good thing that happens to her just has to be jehovah, and every bad thing, she just knows is satan.
this irritates me to no end.
i told her yesterday that i have trouble praying to have relatively petty thing resolved in my life, meanwhile around the world, many people are raped mutilated, tortured, and killed everyday.
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I have always had a problem with that!
growing up my mom would attribute any little material thing to Jehovah's blessing them. they bought a new car "oh thank you jehovah" got a treadmill " oh its Jehovah's blessing us"
Im so over that! what about all the kids dying of cancer are they not worthy of living?are there prayers not heard?
I remember one sunday morning our meeting was a t 9:30 am an an elder and his 4 children and wife where t-boned by a truck on there way to the meeting. the wife and kids where in intensive care for weeks..weren't they doing what they where suppose to do? some sisters in the hall were saying it was satan doing this....so happy im free of this!!
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Looooooooooong Prayers...
by likeabird inlet's have a bit of a laugh.. .
who of you rolled your eyes when brother never ending prayers was called up to give the closing prayer?.
who of you then proceeded to tap your feet, fidget loudly or start doing balancing acts off the back of the chair in front of you while waiting for it to end?.
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I hated those long prayers! hey the brother before you already gave a 45 min talk ok? I remember one time I couldnt take it any longer in my 5in. heals so I just sat down halfway threw that horribly long prayer/talk lol
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Julia gets hit with the Shun Gun for the first time...and it really hurts.
by Julia Orwell inmy jw friend of 20 years, the first one i ever met, the one who got me into jwism in the first place, unfriended me from facebook without explanation.
other jws who have unfriended me at least called me names (apostate) and told me they were unfriending me, but they were no loss.
but someone who's been your friend since you were 13...and no explanation...i'd think 20 years- 20 years!
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so sorry Julia! I'm in the same shoes. last week over 20 friends unfriended me on FB and yesterday I noticed that my best friend of over 20 years also unfriended me and took me off all her networks, it hurts so much even though you know its going to happen.what bothers me the most is that they could at least contact you, anything? something? but no they play there game to blackmail you emotionally.
in my case nobody has contacted us not even the elders its been almost 1 year since our last meeting!
but even though im not DF"d even friends from other states heard that i stopped going so im being shunned.
Your not alone in this trial, were all hear with you!
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Today Is TotallyADD's 5th Birthday
by Reopened Mind inno, he is not 5 years old, he is 59 today.
totallyadd like many of you was raised in the cult and not allowed to celebrate his birthdays.
he was always on the outside looking in, deprived of cake and comraderie.
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOTALLY ADD!!! CHEERS AND TO MANY MORE
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Do you know some witnesses that refuse to go to some restaurants because of the name like....
by Iamallcool inlucky, luck, magic, fortune, etc...do you also know some of them that just shrugged it off and still went there to eat?.
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when i was little whenever we ate at a chinese restaurant i was allowed to eat the fortune cookies but i could not see the paper with the fortune, i had to immediately throw it away or i would get in trouble.
I also couldnt eat certain cereals like Lucky Charms because of the leprechaun my mom would say "jehovah is going to be sad with you if you eat that"
at age 4 my mom had bought me the movie Cinderella i must have watched it 200 times then one morning i wanted to watch it and couldn't find it so i asked my mom and she said she threw it away because the cats name was lucifer! omg, really and if we kept it, we would have satan and the demons in our house!!! i cried for weeks
so happy my kids don't have to go through that