Did u ever feel so depressed u felt the only thing that could get rid of the pain was to commit suicide????...well i tried that tonite,i know its not a good thing ,but i felt it was the only way out..well im still here so i didnt do it,thank god,my wrists have lil cuts everywhere tho,i just hope no one sees them..if u guys remember me yall know it has been an ongoing battle with my parents cause i dont wanna be a witness.. now i literally cannot do nothing! they dont trust me at all! i have no life....i mean how do i cope with all this...do i go against what all i feel and be a lil 2 faced person???well sorry i had to get this off my chest,,,, laura
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Depressed beyond Words...
by Shytears indid u ever feel so depressed u felt the only thing that could get rid of the pain was to commit suicide???
?...well i tried that tonite,i know its not a good thing ,but i felt it was the only way out..well im still here so i didnt do it,thank god,my wrists have lil cuts everywhere tho,i just hope no one sees them..if u guys remember me yall know it has been an ongoing battle with my parents cause i dont wanna be a witness.. now i literally cannot do nothing!
they dont trust me at all!
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IM so mad rite now i do not know where to start!!!!! they r having a party tonite with the witnesses,and u know its saturday nite!!!! my mom is makin me goooo!!! i dont want..i rather just hang out with my couisn(shes not a witness)so my mom is gettin all hyper saying i dont want to have nothing to do with the witnesses,lol,which i dont anyway,please tell me this is not fair,i hate it!!i have soo much fun with my cousin!!and she doesnt want me around her,shes the only one i can trust
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Do u feel u missed out being a JW Teen?
by Shytears indo you feel that you missed out on the social part?emotional part?how do u feel your parents handled it?were they strict,let u do anything?
i just have alot going thru my mind,just wanted to hear some of your comments
laura
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Do you feel that you missed out on the social part?emotional part?How do u feel your parents handled it?were they strict,let u do anything? i just have alot going thru my mind,just wanted to hear some of your comments
Laura
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Why???
by Vivamus inwhy is it that when you want to see dubs, they are never around?
i always bump into them when i least expect it, and when i am not dressed apostate enough!
lol.
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Hey Viv!! i like your attitude,hehe,hope u are doing well,Lots of love,Laura
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I have never really sat down and gave thought to certian things like,if there 'really be an armageddon or paradise,resurecction,ya know those things,It scares me because you feel all secure and safe in the org,and when you go out and try to really find out,the :truth" about it,u have alot of mixed emotions,and doubts,,thats what im battling right now...i mean i know that i dont want to be a witness,but i still want to hold on to the thought of living forever and ever,..i just want to know,how do all of you feel about this???do u still believe or totally think it's bull?just share yours thoughts(i dont know what to believe anymore) Laura
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Big Hugs
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((((((((((((((((((((((((((((huggggs to everyone)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))).
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((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Huggggs to everyone))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
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Oh,sorry if i confused anyone,but im not disfellowshipped just silent reproved,kinda on the down low,which is why i dont understand why they ignore me,not like it was public or anything,i think theres alot of rumors and stuff going around about me.,i think thats one reason,.and another is theres alot of jealously in the cong. sorry bout that_. laura
Edited by - Shytears on 12 January 2003 19:26:26
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Today i went to the assembly,i kinda wanted to go just to find some cute guys to talk to lol,and to get away from the house,i had second thoughts,and i knew every time i fool around these people i get hurt,i should have followed my intuition(i think thats how u spell it ,hehe)...i wish i Never would have went,everyone in my congregation ignored me,my supposely friends acted like i was invisable and just passed me by like they couldnt see me,and one of them had the nerve to ask me if i wanted to go eat out after the assembly!!!errr yeah right after being shunned the whole lunch break,nope,,i cried the whole time. i cant believe some people can be so unloving and mean,and i wish they could find out how much that hurts people.......*sigh*hmm i just wanted to vent,,,sorryyy.. laura
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Hiya everyone,well i meant with this elders a couple of days ago......it was pure torture...i just about busted out laughin when they were asking me questions about my"sin" LOL Gawd what a bunch of dirty minded elders theyare ,heheeh..Lol so after about reading 50 scriptures,they made me wait outside so they could discuss either to d'f or reprove me....when it was done we went sit back in the library,they said"Laura we can tell u are very sorry,and we see that and jehovah knows too,LMFAO!! was i??? Not EVEN!!! Wow iam a GOOD actress,ehehe,i sure fooled them,hahaha,well they silent reproved me,o whatever,i can comment or give talks!AHAHAHA i never comment any way so i dont care bout that,and i hardly give talks..wow im so sad now,lol...yeah right!.! well im doin a lil better now,my moods go up and down like a yo yo,but its cool,i have a job at mcdonalds,hehe its ok,i burn myself alot tho...im trying to save money to buy a car...and this is the good part!!! i was talking with my mom,we talked a long time and she said,if i really be good,i can move out at 17!!!Yeah,i know its better at 18 but ill just move with my friend:)shes 19,hehe,well gotta go bye bye............... Laura
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Who's the coolest here?
by troucul inbeen here awhile now, mostly as a lurker, but while reading alot of posts, i feel justified in formulating an opinion on who the coolest person on this board is.
so my vote goes to ....drum roll.... .
valis .
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Me,MUhahhaaha