JG
Scotsman, your hunch is correct.
I'm getting good at reading between the lines. Primate Dave, interesting points. I wasn't molested as a minor, nor did I have sexual contact with other kids (well, I did once lick yoghurt off one hot friend's leg but I don't think that qualifies as sexual) but boy did I fantasise about having sex with a guy from a young age. The desire didn't come from a book, it sprang from within me.