"everyone in my life" is one person
This is pretty much where I am at. I have minimal contact with family. and no real friends to speak of. The couple people I consider close friends live far away and lead busy lives, we only talk a couple times a year.
Add to that that my hubby is likely to die before me due to his disability, in fact I came home from work once and thought he was dead. Scared the shit out of me. Really made me take stock and figure out some priorities. I realised that I was spending all of my time at a job I didn't like, away from the one person I wanted to spend all my time with. We did some figuring and realised that if we moved to a less expesive place and budgeted, we could live off hubby's disability income. So now I am retired and we spend all of our time together.
I know that being alone again will probably happen someday.. but I did it once and survived.. and next time I won't have the turmoil of figuring out who I am thrown in. I've got that figured out now Facing the fact that it can happen is not easy, but once you accept it, you can face it.
Misty