((((Susu))))
I also grew up surrounded by jw's. My entire family are all still 'in'. Although I am not df'd or da'd I am shunned to some degree by my family. I never had alot of close witness friends, but when I started my fade, I had no one except my husband. Growing up as a JW also left me socially retarded so for a while I had a really hard time making new friends. Overtime I made a few really good friends, and they treat me waaay better then anyone from the congregation ever did.
I am sorry your feeling so lost. It gets better, I promise. Hang in there. =)