I had the same problem. could not make close friends And never thought I'd trust anyone to get close to again. But over the past two years I've managed to make two close friends and we talk about everything and I've told them of my JW past and they've been a great support for me and they've proved themselves to be true friends. They've helped me heal. And helped me to have enough confidence to stand on my own, seperate from JWism. JWism no longer cripples me with fear. I admit I do get moments of anxiety and stress regarding JWs, especially as my parents are in but it's slowly dissipating. I know I'm right in leaving that religion.
I used to be on medications too- Effexor and Epilim for a mood disorder. It caused my daughter to be born with a disability. I refused to take them ever again But I've not been as bad as I was prior to having children. I still suffer bouts of depression and struggle but that's when my friends and my mum comes and helps me.