@ Focus: "I was a deluded dumbass, a retard, a moron, a fool, an idiot, a gullible naive cretin. I must not feel sorry for myself, but instead cringeingly apologetic to all others I tried to preach to or to convert, and thus tried to infect them with the foul, disgusting mental disease that I carried. I am very angry with myself and with the Wicked Watchtower Cult which scammed me."
The only thing I would add is to use the anger as rocket fuel to accomplish as much as possible in life: education, travel, culture, art, etc., etc., and whatever fuels your fire. Anger can be a positive emotion if used correctly. Focus, I was a born-in, so can I get a bit of a reprieve?!! LOL.