over the last year after leaving the organization, i have done much research and read many books on the topic of jw's.
i have found peace in the fact that i truely believe that it is a false religion and that i want nothing to do with it ever again.
my problem is that i have been through, like most of you alot of emotions such as fear, anger, stupidity, (that i could allow myself to get involved so deeply in something), and many other feelings too.
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Thank you so much for all the love and concern. You are all so helpful. I havent been here much lately, but you have a wonderful way of making me feel right back at home. I am taking one day at a time, things can be a little overwhelming sometimes, but its nice to have such nice friends.
thanks
mamashel
over the last year after leaving the organization, i have done much research and read many books on the topic of jw's.
i have found peace in the fact that i truely believe that it is a false religion and that i want nothing to do with it ever again.
my problem is that i have been through, like most of you alot of emotions such as fear, anger, stupidity, (that i could allow myself to get involved so deeply in something), and many other feelings too.
Over the last year after leaving the organization, i have done much research and read many books on the topic of JW's. I have found peace in the fact that i truely believe that it is a false religion and that i want nothing to do with it ever again. My problem is that i have been through, like most of you alot of emotions such as fear, anger, stupidity, (that i could allow myself to get involved so deeply in something), and many other feelings too. The one that i cannot seem to get over is bitterness and hate.
My family, as alot of you know, have gone through so much with the kh and the elders, that every time i even see one of them this rage goes through me like a bolt of lightning. I really dont know why i feel such anger, but it really concerns me, because i dont know how to get rid of it.
About a week ago, 2 elders from the last congregation we attended stopped by our house. My daughter was still pregnant, and they started asking her all kinds of questions. Then after treating her like garbage when she was attending the meetings when she was first pregnant, they looked her right in her eye and said, "Oh, we didnt know you were expectig agagin, whose the daddy?" I almost went through the roof when i found out, because we were not home the first time they came by. That was the biggest LIE I have ever heard in my life. Then they came by again, and my husband told them that we were no longer interested in going to the meetings, because of how our family was treated at the hall. They just stood there dumb-founded like they had no idea what we could posibly be talking about. All they did was ask questions about what was going on in our lives, and let us know that one particular "SISTER" had let them know who the father of my daughters baby was. HAHAHAHA... Guess what??? They had their stinking, rotton information wrong. Hmmmm. I wonder how that happened.
Anyway, my husband told them it was none of their business, and to leave from our property. They calmly left and said they just wanted to encourage us to come back to the meetings, that they missed us. I looked at them and told them the only thing they missed was to have something to talk about. I cant wait to here what they are going to try and do next. I swear if they come back again , i am going to call the police for them tresspassing and harrassing us. That will give them something to talk about in service huh.
Any suggestions are welcome though, on how i can move on and get over the bitterness that I feel. It's almost like I cant even go on and live a happy life, because i dont know how.
And i dont have any guilt for leaving the org, hubby still does though, but that will take time too. I just dont know how to get over alot of the things that happened.
mamashel
if you've ever been a witness, is it possible to experience the true "christmas spirit"?edited by - minimus on 15 december 2002 8:29:2.
I have been trying really hard to get into the christmas spirit. I dont know what is wrong, because when i was a child, i wasnt a jw, and christmas was one of the biggest days of our lives. Now it just doesnt seem to be so wonderful any more. Since my husband was raised jw, he really doesnt get into it yet, and that probably has alot to do with it. But i am trying to make it really nice for the kids. Maybe if hubby would be alittle more into it, it would be nicer, but that will probably just take some time. He's only been out for almost a year, and still feels the guilt trip, and thinks he's doing something wrong.
Oh, well, i've got a nice present for him and i think that will help alot.
mamashel
i have missed you all so much.
i have been working alot of hours, and there has been sooooo much going on lately, i have'nt had time to think.
so i had some free time today to try and say hello to you all.
Hello everybody. I have missed you all so much. I have been working alot of hours, and there has been sooooo much going on lately, i have'nt had time to think. So i had some free time today to try and say hello to you all. I miss talking to everyone so much. My hours are going to be a little more normal now, and hopefully i can return and talk more often. I know i probably have alot of catching up to do. I hope everyone is well, and getting ready for christmas. I know scootergirl especially has been busy. Thanks for the card scooter, i really appreciate the time and love you put into everything.
Oh, by the way, I am a grandma as of Saturday, the 14th, my daughter had a beautiful 7lb 3oz boy. His name is Michael Brian, and he is beautiful.
love always,
mamshel
i've been on vacation for the past week.
i elected to stay home and devote my time to getting several projects accomplished around the house.
i made myself a solemn vow that come what may, i was absolutely going to get a table built for my patio this week.
Nice job comfy, the house looks really nice too!
mamashel
just curious here..... if you left the "truth" when you still had children living at home, what was their reaction to your leaving?.
did they leave too?.
did they want to remain jws?.
Mine were all very happy. They hated getting ready for meetings.
Now their even happier because of getting to celebrate the holidays,
mamashel
my wife, liza, came home from work this morning (she was doing the 3rd shift thing) and said she was leaving me.
this afternoon at 1 pm i took her to the bus station.
at 4:20 pm she was off to nyc.
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I am so very sorry. Maybe a little time away from each other and she will relize what you mean to her. Sometimes absence makes the heart grow fonder. I wish you the best though, take one day at a time.
mamashel
well these guys sure do!
http://www.blackpeopleloveus.com/index.html.
funny and informative at the same time
okey dokey!! This could definately start a war. But I LUV black people. Considering the fact that my children are bi-racial and absulutely beautiful, I mean, there's no more georgous people on the earth in my opinion. May be just a bit partial though!
mamashel
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my daughters boyfriend was at his moms the other night and the elders just happened to stop by and talk with him.. anyhow, after their discussion about him and my daughter and the baby and what they are going to do, (havent been to meetings in 7 months mind you), her boyfriend told the elders that he no longer wanted to attend meetings and my daughter told them the same.. the elders admitted to them that there is a huge number of people that felt the same way, and the halls are much emptier than they ever were.. hmmm, i wonder why?.
mamashel
My daughters boyfriend was at his moms the other night and the elders just happened to stop by and talk with him.
Anyhow, after their discussion about him and my daughter and the baby and what they are going to do, (havent been to meetings in 7 months mind you), her boyfriend told the elders that he no longer wanted to attend meetings and my daughter told them the same.
The elders admitted to them that there is a huge number of people that felt the same way, and the halls are much emptier than they ever were.
Hmmm, i wonder why?
mamashel
why can't we all just drop it.
talking this to death won't change anything!!!!!!!!!
i don't understand the reason or need to "take sides".
AMEN JES!!! i 2ND THAT ONE!!
It is getting rediculous all this bickering and fighting back and forth. If it was going to change someones opinion or belief it would be different but its not so it just needs to stop. I dont even read it any more, just gives me a headache.
Just my 2 cents though!
And as always, love ya jes
mamashel
