Three sisters, Reading your posts has made me cry. Right now I can totally empathize with all of you. I'm at the point where I don't know what is happening or how I feel. I haven't heard from my family all summer. My son joined the military and I supported him and I guess that was the last straw. They know I will never be a witness again. I thought they were going to leave it up to me whether to disassociate myself or not, but now I'm not so sure.
All summer I have been going round and round in my feelings. I'm sad that they don't want me, I'm pissed as hell that they would actually choose that stupid religion over me. I'm heatbroken that I probably won't get to be there for them. They are both almost 80 and have health problems. In the past we have had a sporadic relationship. Usually not seeing each other much when things are going well and then being around alot when they have problems. But it is just too damn hard to turn my emotions off and on. Tuning them out when they go on about me coming back and then worrying and helping out when they have medical troubles. They both have had life threatening situations in the past year. I have been very depressed all summer. If I didn't have my husband, my daughter, and letters from my son, I don't think I would have gotten out of bed most days. I guess all I can do is hope that someday at least some of my siblings will get fed up with it and join me. Right now even the ones that are very weak witnesses aren't contacting me, and I don't know if I am strong enough to contact them. els
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15"Hi Mom, this is your 'wake-up call.'
by TuningFork ini'm coming in here this morning because even though i am learning not to be a victim in this shunning experience "again," i do have feelings and am very sad this morning.
you see, usually about every two weeks or so (at least), i would call my mom early in the morning and say, "hi mom, this is your wake-up call.
" little did i know just how much energy was carried in that message.
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Just recieved "Crisis of Conscience"
by els ini just got my copy from amazon.com.
too tired tonight but i, going to start it tomorrow.
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I just got my copy from Amazon.com. Too tired tonight but I, going to start it tomorrow. I'll let you know what I think. els
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That's a new one on me. But you miss alot being inactive for 16 years or so. Where are you now? I'm in Fort Ann, east of Glen's Falls. Only about 10 miles from where I grew up. els
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I am in TEARS!!!!!!!!!! Please read!!!!
by Jesika inthey are tears of joy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.
let me share with you my great news............................ someone from this board has given me the greatest gift i have had in a very long time!!!!!
i recieved an email last night from someone asking me if i could find a place to stay they would buy my ticket so i could be at the march on the 27th.
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Jesika, I am so happy for you, please hug everyone you can for those of us who can't be there. Silent Lambs?... Silent no more! els
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Does god love children?
by kelsey007 inmany people claim that the god of the bible loves children and fetuses.
but what does the bible say?
according to god's law, children are not persons but the property of their fathers, who may sell them as slaves.
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If he loves childre or anyone why isn't he doing anything abou tthe horrible things that affect them that they have no power to escape. Has any one seen the news about the mother who was beating her daughter in the parking lot in Indiana?
elsewhere, Do you look like your picture? Because that's what I see in my mind when I read your posts. els -
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Wow they had that many kids. I guess I have been out of touch. Although I don't think my sister and brother in law have much contact with them, maybe none.
Revmalk, What congregation were you in?
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Spencer Winterburn is Sherry Innes' son, he's married to my oldest sister, Susan, I'm not sure why the different last names. When he was younger he had dark hair but was balding early. He has a very strange accent. Sort of a combo of English and southern with some other things thrown in. He says Jehover and ideer ( Jehovah and idea ). Judy Guimond, her maiden name was Innes I think, was married to some guy, I can't remember his name, that turned out to be gay, I think he ended up commiting suicide. I,m pretty sure Sherry is living with Judy and her son Joe again.
The readhead is their other sister Rosemary, The guy with the pizzaria is Carl. I'm not sure if they are still married. I know they had problems. They had three redheaded kids, one boy and two girls. The name Vanessa comes to mind for one of them but I may be wrong.
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Dazed, I haven't seen her for a long time but I do know that she is still alive. My sister mentioned awile back that she is having a hip replacement (I think) sometime. Maybe it was this summer. I haven't heard from any one in my family since the end of June when I told them my son was in the Army Reserve and had left for basic training.
Anyway, it is nice to hear from someone from this area. Are you still around here?
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What's the worst thing you did at the KH?
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i went to the 1999 memorial with no underwear on!.
so what's the worst thing everyone's done on borg property?
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I was in a program once with my sister and I was supposed to read a scripture about some prophet. I can't remember which one, but it said something about "the visions of his head upon his bed" Something about the way it rhymed, I couldn't read it without giggling. We practiced the thing a bunch of times and it just got worse and worse. We should have switched parts but we didn't so when Thursday night rolled around, I bravely tried to read it and of course I started laughing hysterically. I had to leave the platform and let my sister finish the whole thing. I think she was more mortified than I was. I spoiled her perfect image. els
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Past History of WT Regarding Disfellowshipped
by Scorpion inpast history of wt instructions regarding the disfellowshipped
and they might sometimes have the grandchildren visit them.
wt 9/15/1981, p. 29. jehovahs witnesses should hate ex-jws and those who oppose gods organization.
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No matter what you conclude from your own reasoning, follow Jehovahs directions." Did they actually say that? els