This is Mulan.............hit my posting limit, it seems. So am hijacking my hubby's identity. (((((((((Dawn)))))))))) You are quite a writer, girl! I love your analogy of being on two sides of a glass, and never able to touch. Very poignant.
I feel for you, and understand how hard this must be for you. We are kind of in an opposite situation. My elderly JW mother lives with us, and sees Christmas all around her, at our house. Christmas parties with the entire family invited, but she can't go. I know she loves the decorations and all the goodies, and the presents too. She is probably wondering if there is something for her. There isn't. But I feel for her. It must be hard.
We will be thinking of you. If we lived down there, we could all get together for Christmas. The more the merrier. But, we are exactly opposite of you, in the NW.