Hi Anotheropenviewpoint (what a mouthful!).
I learnt pain from the organisation - and from this pain I made sure I no longer took things at face value, nor took the word of man literally. It is obvious you are passionate about your belief, but please realise we were all once just as passionate. Yes, we HAVE learned from being JWs - some good, some excrutiatingly bad!
AOV (that's easier!), Watchtower sets great emphasis on making God's name known - and yet 'Jehovah' is completely erroneous, as is the name 'Jesus'.
You wrote:
I gave up in my own ability to decide or "know" what is truth, only through prayer do I ask God (Jehovah) personally to use me in his will, Whether or not he chooses to do so is up to him.
The word ‘Jehovah’ dates only from the year 1520 (cf. Hastings, "Dictionary of the Bible", II, 1899, p. 199: Gesenius-Buhl, "Handwörterbuch", 13th ed., 1899, p. 311). Drusius (loc. cit., 344) represents Peter Galatinus as the inventor of the word Jehovah, and Fagius as it propagator in the world of scholars and commentators. But the writers of the sixteenth century, Catholic and Protestant (e.g. Cajetan and Théodore de Bèze), are perfectly familiar with the word. Galatinus himself ("Areana cathol. veritatis", I, Bari, 1516, a, p. 77) represents the form as known and received in his time. Besides, Drusius (loc. cit., 351) discovered it in Porchetus, a theologian of the fourteenth century.
Finally, the word is found even in the "Pugio fidei" of Raymund Martin, a work written about 1270 (ed. Paris, 1651, pt. III, dist. ii, cap. iii, p. 448, and Note, p. 745). Probably the introduction of the name Jehovah antedates even R. Martin."
The word seems to come via the German monasteries where YHWH was written JHVH (J is Y in German and W becomes V). Because of the ban from Leviticus 24:16: "And he that blasphemeth the name of the Lord, dying let him die" - there was a ban in Biblical Times from pronouncing the tetragrammaton, and the word Adonai, (=Lord) was read whenever YHWH was in the text. In the late Middle Agecs the vowels of AdOnAi were added (in Germany( to the Tetragrammaton JHVH to make JaHoVaH = Jahovah, later Anglicised to Jehovah.
As an Elohim (composite male and female) God of YH (Yah, Yahu, Yaa, Yaw or Yahw) and the Goddess HWH - we get the composite name Yahweh. Further, the name has been traced to a 1400 BC Ugaritic text where YHWH is one of the 70 sons of the Canaanite creator god 'El'. In other words, the Hebrew God 'Yahweh' is derived from a pagan source (bet they don't teach you that in your Bible studies!).
Regarding Jesus, the English 'Jesus' is far from the original pronunciation of the man's name. We get Jesus from Anglo-Saxon English, in which (like German today) the J was originally pronounced as a Y (like Johan is pronounced in German Yohan). Thus in Anglo-saxon times his name was pronounced *Yesus rather than *Jesus.
In Roman times Jesus, or Jesu, was pronounced as 'Hesu', which is closer to the Modern Arabic 'Isa'. In any case, it is clear from the times that the medial -s- was probably aspirated, as -sh-. When translated from Aramaic into Greek, the diphthong -uah seems to have been simplified as -u.
Thus in Aramaic, the language that Jesus spoke, his name was probably not Jesus (English) or Jesu (Latin) but Yeshuah. This was the 1st Century Palestinian (or even Galilean) Aramaic way, I understand, for pronouncing the name Joshua.
If one was interested in accurate pronunciation of the name of the man in English, one would have to use something like Yeshuah, not Jesus. Unfortunately we call him Jesus Christ, almost as if Christ was a surname. Yet Christ is a Greek title (meaning annointed), not an Aramaic name, and would not have been used in any setting during Yeshuah's lifetime. Thus to someone alive who knew Yeshuah personally they would, on hearing a modern English speaker use the words "Jesus Christ", ask "Who is that?"
Is all of this important? Well, it certainly is to me because I learnt I was using two incorrect names during prayers. I also learnt that the whole of the Bible has its roots in Egypt (that's another story).
So, AOV, many of us have learnt an awful lot while being JWs - but we've learnt the REAL truth since leaving.
I wish you well with your studies, but please be sure to look outside of Watchtower material for accuracy. I spent 19 years in the organisation, but compared to others on this forum that's absolutely nothing. Please search the archives here and read the posts of AlanF, Hillary Step and Gamaliel. Also, be sure to read Crisis of Conscience and In Search of Christian Freedom by Raymond Franz.
Best wishes,
Dansk