Like JWFacts, I was too embarrassed to turn it down too. I just had gotten through looking at dial-up soft porn - Kitana Baker was so fine! Just after disconnecting, my PO called and asked if there was any reason I couldn't be appointed.
"Ummmm, no?"
"Okay, great. We're going to announce you this coming Tuesday night.
At my last hall, they pulled me in right before the meeting started and asked me. Same thing. No porn this time, but my wife and I had gotten to know each other very well before we were married. I was too embarrassed to tell them that.
And this was about the time that I realized that we weren't appointed by holy spirit. Before that, I rationalized that Jehovah saw my heart and knew that my heart was in the right place despite my shortcomings. I figured that he was appointing me to give me the support I needed to hold an upright course. But the more the GB talked about how a MS was appointed and the qualifications found in the scriptures, I realized I didn't live up to any of that, but with their blinders, they thought I did. They just needed another body to fill a job and looked past all the obvious evidence that I wasn't where the GB said I needed to be spiritually.