I was basically a born in jw. 65 years a dub. 20 years as an elder. 5 years as as a ms. I began 'waking up' in earnest about 15 years ago and started my concentrated fade 5 years ago. I really think that most long term dubs (40+years as a dub) see whats happening and are uncomfortable but because their exists a cultural "unanimous unwillingness" to talk about their doubts, they remain publicly silent. However, I talk with with my life long jw friends nearly every day and hear their pain and dissatisfaction loud and clear. I encourage them as often as I can to search their heart and do what's right for them and their family. Unfortunately, the, "where else can we go" ,syndrome has them and I know that most of them will pass away still 'hoping' for that elusive "paradise earth". I'd pray for them, but the big guy in the sky has never answered me before so I doubt he's interested!
just saying!
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