The elders are still debating if they want to view me as disassociated or not.
I'd lose all my witness friends.
My parents who are JWs more than 50 years wouldn't shun me as they themselves think shunning is wrong. But it would make life more difficult. Like would they sleep over at my place when they visit me and my son? What if other witnesses observe it?
I am not sure if on the long run it would be better for my little boy if I am officially df / da?
I am starting now to make new friendships with non JW. I already have some developing which is precious to me.