Dear Lenna
You will have a wonderful life ahead of you.
Love, compassion and respect for other, caring and helping in smaller and bigger things can bring real meaning to your life.
As to the question about if there is a god. Pray to your creator, even though you don't know who he is. After studying and meditating about old testament accounts of Jehovah ordering genocide and mass killings of children even babies (for example Numb.31) it is clear to me that this is just the tribal god of old Israel and NOT the true creator.
After doing research about the blood doctrine, shunning of df even among family it is clear to me that JWs are NOT the true religion (I doubt that there is a true religion.
I believe in a loving father / creator who wants individual persons to be free and enjoy a life of love, compassion and joy.
There are good times ahead of you. Don't let JWs make you feel guilty and bad. They might be individually loving and kind people but the organisation and its teachings CAN NOT be guided by the true god.
I wish you and your husband all the best from my heart.