Congratulations on having the courage to read the COC book.
I knew the Organization was acting Unchristian but it still took me over ten years after being disfellowshipped to even take a peek. We had all been warned so many times to Not read Apostate material or we would be disfellowshipped as an Apostate.
Just to let you know, I was disfellowshipped for disagreeing with an elder regarding the sisters wearing "leg-warmers" in the field service. I was labeled an Apostate anyway. This all seems so silly now.