Posts by Mystery

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Why Depression Sucks.

by shamus in

jw
friends

because you can make jokes and appear "happy" at the drop of a hat, meanwhile, you're being chewed up from the inside out.

because you can't learn to take one day at a time because your good days are always overshadowed by knowing that you're going to just slip back down again.

it's inevitable.

Mystery

Shamus -

I appreciate your comments; unfortunately - i wish he was a "typical teen' but he isn't.

He is bi-polar and to the extent of depression he has tried to commit sucide and has done self- mutalation. I will never be able to "understand" all he has done. Thru research and reading threads, such as this, I hope to be able to connect with him to a degree.

Fighting against "the system" (police officials), doctors and phy doctors to instutionalize him to find a "solution" to his problem I have suceeded to a degree. He is on meds and hopefully this will help to a degree. Depression.... it seems like I am fighting an "unseen demon" trying to possess my son. Problem is... this "unseen demon" does not know who he is up against!

I have lost my "family" due to JW's. I WILL NOT lose my son due to depression or bi-polar or any other diagnosis that he is labled with.

No disrespect to you or anyone what so ever. But I will fight this battle with my son until he wins or I die.

My love and deepest respect,

deborah

48

I need a hug (vent)

by Billygoat in

why is it i always end up working for companies that don't give a crap about their employees well-being?

i've been here since march as a temp; got a full-time offer in december and almost immediately the workload has increased and there is no new hires are on the horizon.

the political games in some of these departments is mind-blowing.

Mystery

((((Billygoat)))))))

49

Why Depression Sucks.

by shamus in

jw
friends

because you can make jokes and appear "happy" at the drop of a hat, meanwhile, you're being chewed up from the inside out.

because you can't learn to take one day at a time because your good days are always overshadowed by knowing that you're going to just slip back down again.

it's inevitable.

Mystery

Thank you.

You have helped me "understand" more, things to do and not to do to my son. He is sunk in a depression that he can not seem to get out of. I will try to understand more. I do know that the last thing to say to a person in the state of depression is "i know what you are going thru.... but...."

Just know that when someone says "i love you" what they are trying to say is "i want to help, I just am not sure of how to do so", don't turn away from someone just because they don't understand. Maybe... just maybe they simply don't know how to help.

maybe holding on to you is the only way they know how.

40

The Drive Home Tonight,Crying.

by Blueblades in

jw
friends

let's see,where do i start?i decided to have a quiet drive home after work.it takes about one and half hours.no cd playing,no talk radio,no news, just a quiet drive listening to my own thoughts.i'm not concentrating on any one thing,just kind of letting my mind flow wherever it wants to.. then it starts,my mind goes back to when our children were small.as i'm driving i am having this flashback,i'm going to save my family from dying at armageddon,why the little ones are dependant on us for their future life happiness.. there will be no birthday parties,holiday celebrations,even though one of them was born on the 4th of july.no extra-curricular activities at school,and everyone will know that they don't salute the flag,nor sing the national anthem.and at the infirmary they know that they are not to take blood.. after school homework,the preparing for meetings,more studying comes next.no tv.

tonight,it's a meeting night.oh goody,the weekend is here,now we can go out and play.sorry,we have to go out in field service,mommy and daddy will show you how to have so much fun in the field service on saturday and sunday.. i start to cry,literally,there is real pain in my chest and a lump in my throat.as i have this flashback on the drive home tonight.i think of how i robbed my children of their childhood,i'm getting very emotional and angry,a picture flashes across my mind of all those years,30 plus,that i lost for my wife and children.the opportunities that we turned down,we are going to survive armageddon!.

i have had a talked with my family about my regrets over having put my family through this before and they don't blame me.they feel that i was doing what i thought was the best for them at the time.they forgive me,but i having yet forgiven myself.. the family says that they learned something about life,religion etc.that the experience has not made them bitter,and they have moved on.the children are happily married and doing fine.my wife and i are doing the best that we can with what time we have left.we are in our sixties,no retirement or pension fund.taking it day to day.. this is what happened on the quiet drive home tonight,it's been a year and a half of being inactive and still the flashbacks of the past 30 something years in the watchtower and all of what that has entail in raising my family still wells up inside me when i try to rest my mind and think of nothing.. i cried all the way home for one and a half hours,pain in my chest and heart,my head feeling like it would explode,angry at the society for the big chunk of life that they stole from us.. and i thought of so many others sharing the same feelings and experiences as my family,and those still stuck inside.soon as i arrived home,i collected myself together and said:"hi honey,i'm home!

Mystery

(((((((((((blueblades))))))))))))

Feb. 14th - the next "thing we missed" right??? !!!!!

Send everyone of your kids ballons for every year your missed. With a big heart one right in the middle with HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!!!! And another one that says I LOVE YOU. Send them to your grandkids!!! What a CRAZY grandpaw they have!!! But they will never forget it!

Send your wife a single rose for every year you didn't. Pick up a bottle of champagne and your favorite "dinner". Tell her how much she means to you!

St. Patricks Day! hey, corney but..... turn your water... your wine... etc... GREEN! Send your kids a dozen green flowers/ballons/shamrocks!

We all cry. We all loss. And one day it just hits us. I am glad that it hit you. Men don't cry..... BS.

On their birthdays.... make up for all the ones you missed. Make a fool of yourself???? YES!

Will they think you have lost your mind?? Probably. But so what!

When is the last time you danced with your wife? You sent her flowers? You told her how beautiful she is? Tell her! Tell your children!

The 4th of July have so many fireworks that it puts your city to shame! (in the event that you live in a small city. !!!) To heck with waiting for the 4th!!... have a BBQ and have fire works in Jan... Feb... Mar....

When is the last time you dressed up for Halloween (i know - it is a little way off BUT...........)

CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Get them things now.... Dumb things.... memory things.... have so many presents under the tree, that you can't see the tree.

I know this probably sounds dumb but....... if you are greiving for all that you have lost... go overboard for a while!

I have "caught up on so much" that I "lost" in the past few years. I love my mom. She loves me CONDITIONALLY! I love my sister. She loves me CONDITIONALLY! If ..... IF they ever love me again for me .... I will give them the biggest Birthday Party that ANYONE has ever seen!! The biggest CHRISTMAS that anyone has ever seen (even if it means going to the $1 Store and wrapping every present individually!!) Live my friend... your tears are a beginning to setting yourself completely free.

Your family has "forgiven" you..... it is time for you to forgive yourself.... it is time to celebrate!

Cry some more. Hug more. Love more. Freedom is a wonderful thing.

deborah

38

I'm Home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

by Yizuman in

jw
friends

finally!

i got a place of my own!

i moved here last week sunday after i saw an ad for an apt for $425.00 p/m w/ all utilities paid!!!

Mystery

Congradulations!!

14

My story again

by larc in

jw
friends

i have told my story before, but since there are a lot of new people, i thought i would tell it again.

(please forgive the fact that i can't do paragraphs, because for some reason webtv doesnt' work here.

) i was born a jw, or close to it.

Mystery

Thank you Larc.

10

Blood Transfusions & the Law

by Mystery in

jw
friends

blood transfusions and the law

my sister just called me.

i knew someone had to be sick or hurt.

Mystery

Just a quick update. My nephew is out of danger as far as surgery - hopefully he stays that way.

If the situation comes up again I will know what to do. Thank you again.

16

Am I the only one who has never seen a WT/Awake left in a public place?

by somebodylovesme in

jw
friends

i've heard a few comments about watchtowers and awakes being left in doctor's offices, laundromats, etc.

maybe the witnesses are lazy in my home area, but i have never seen anything like that -- and i think, since i always look for something to read, i would have noticed.

strange.

Mystery

My son had his monthly Psychiatrist visit. Both W & A were there. I guess they are trying to "save" the ones receiving counseling.

28

I outgrew the "truth"

by micheal in

jw
friends

as the saying goes, "you only live once".

with that, after being a witness for 15 years it was just time to move on to something else.. .

yes i believe the witnesses do not have the ultimate truth as they believe they do, which helped in my decision to move on.

Mystery

Congradulations Michael!

The puzzel just didn't fit did it.

28

I Finally Show my Face Again and with Great News!!

by kelpie in

jw
friends

it has been a while since i was able to log on and spend time going over topics.

i am sorry that i backed out at the last minute with the secrect santa.

due to family obligations, landlords wanting their house back and job changes, i didnt have the time to spend to myself.. i know you are all dying to hear my good news.................. as a lot of you know, i miscarried the middle of last year.

Mystery

Congradulations - to both of you.